Okay..before you judge this at all you need to hear this story to understand why I named it this.

Okay so a few days ago on my fan account, this girl (I'm gonna call Kara for this) is sending me at 12:00 pm 6 different live video  notifications meaning she wanted me to watch her live. At that tome I didn't see it for 1) I was at school 2) I dont always check all my messages till afterschool.

So at 6:00pm I see all the messages and I say "Im so sorry I wasn't able to view your live. I was at school but maybe another time" and she says, "Its okay, can you join my live now and call me"

And for me, I never join lives. Its not that I dont wanna talk and have a discussion, I just feel its very hard to communicate through a network stream that may be glitchy and stuff.

So anyway, I tell her "I don't really join lives or anything I'm sorry" I wasn't mean to her. I was just being respectful.

And her response; she sends me a request to join. I really dont feel in the mood to join a lobe and as I said before its really complicated and I say, "I'm sorry I can't at the moment"

And she just continues to send me requests and saying how "Please I'm a big fan of you" and "I'm gonna cry if you don't join". I get a deep sense of guilt from it all, but I stand my ground and still say politely, "im sorry I can't at the moment, maybe another time?"

And she says okay but with a bunch of crying emojis. And to try to make it feel better I even give her a  shoutout on my feed.

Days pass and tonight(legit 10 minutes ago) she sends me a request to see her live and I'm like to myself Why not? I'll watch a little bit of it at least to be supportive

So I tap on it and I come on to watch the live and see in the icon that I was the only viewer, some people popped in but didn't stay. I felt bad because she seemed like a very sweet girl.

Then I send a message in the live and say "Hey😊" and she sees I'm on. So then I get these messages in front of me that Kara was requesting for me to join and at the moment and like I said I never like joining lives or having people join my lives(not because I dislike them but its just my preference of the general thing). So I declined the three requests and I tried to veer from it and asked, "What are you doing?"

But I wasn't able to send it. Kara began to speak and this is what she says;

"Oh, hey merrellkey4life! If you don't join my live then you must be FAKE"

That got me SHOOK. Like it wasn't a petite way of saying it. She YELLED AT THE SCREEN, she was ANGRY. She says "If you don't join my live RIGHT NOW, then you are FAKE"

What. The. Heck.

I was speechless holding my phone. My mouth LEGIT gaps wide open. I squeak out a yelp cause I didn't expect it AT ALL(in the background my dad shushing me cause my sisters sound asleep on the couch). And in my fumbling of my thumbs, I close out of the live and I send her a dm "I am not fake I am just busy, I came to see your live nvm ttyl"

And right now, I am flustered. I have the right to not wanna do a live. I dont NEED to do a live with her. I get why she waa upset but she didn't have to call me a fake. Im WAYYY far from that! I post pics of myself on my media WAY more tuan I should, I did 6 lives total on my account, and I'm pretty open on my account.

You know what's fake and it my boggles me still today? ...comment if you wanna here that cause thats just strange how it came about

But yeah that was my rant, I needed to get that off my chest. I hope I dont seem like a jerk to you guys. Its not that I dislike a person, I just rarely watch or join lives at all(EVEN MY IDOLS I NEVER WATCH THEIR LIVE VIDEOS) Its not you its me

Also I felt like I havent properly ranted in a while and I made this book to..oh idk RANT!

This is all unedited so if it doesnt make sense sry just go with it😂😂

Just know I love yall so much and if ya wanna hear about my strange ironic thing that happened to me this week please comment and I'll be sure to rant about it😂😂💗💗💗