Dear Wattpad,
I don't fucking know why I bother...

I just don't fucking know...

I'm so FUCKING SICK OF BEING CLOSETED
IM SICK OF NOVODY BOTHERING TO SEE IF I'M OKAY AND REALIZING WHEN I'M NOT THOUGH I SAY I AM
IM SICK OF HAVING TO HIDE MY PERSONALITY
I'M SICK OF FEELIBG WORTHLESS

I mean, if I were to suddenly disappear, no one would care, my parents would just fall back on "perfect" little Roland to be proud of. My friends would all have each other. Think of it, I'm lazy, stupid, worthless, and it's probably just my brain wanting to be special and unique so I made up my identity, it's not like anybody takes me seriously IM JUST A STUPUD ASS KID!!!!!
I'll never understand what its like to feel depressed, in probably just wasting my parents time even bothering to talk to them!!!!!
I just want to be able to not be judged by anyone, I wish in could let down my facade of happiness BUT I FUCKING CANT!!!!

Sorry if I've just wasted your time to,
Allen (not like anyone gives two shits,)