So I asked my mom if I can to the tour and she fucking Said this to my face... "No It's Dangerous and You dont know them..." Dude I Watched them almost Three fucking years and I said to her "My birthday gift please I want to go!!!" I literally Almost cried and my fucking sister said "There just humans they did not did anything right..." and I walked out of the room and There Fucking wrong Why dont they understand And I literally Hugged the TABINOF and DAPGO crying and until I fell Asleep and I kept crying They dont Understand... They Saved me Like She doesnt even know I Cut and shit like that like every fucking day I put a Forced Smile so They wont suspect a thing the Only that makes me Happy is Youtube,Tumblr,Wattpad & My friends and the youtubers who fucking saved me and They dont fuckinv understand How I fucking feel The only person who knows me is Me My friends doesnt even know the real me anymore and Like Leanne is the only one who suspects me if Im doing ok and stuff she always ask if I need to open up and stuff like that Like She has a strong connection with me she knows when Im faking or sad Im 12 depressed and only be happy with the Internet and Socially Awkward and With out the internet I never met the people who can relate in my situation thanks to you my friends and youtube my life got better... And I literally Had an Existential Crisis Infront of my friends and they were so shocked because I went silent and I walk out at the library went to the classroom And I am just At the floor Blinking and Murmuring and My president at our classroom said "You ok?" She poked me and I never said a word and she literally Walk at a chair and Read a book and forgot about my existance and I was like there tears forming in my eyes and cry for a good Five minutes and after that I am on my phone Watching Dan and Phil :)

And that was my day...

GOOD BYE INTERNET!