Depression.

It's a horrid thing. I though I overcame it.

That's not true.

I don't cut myself because of it, I push others away, who I have a very strong bond with.

It doesn't help that one of my best friends moved and another left me for more 'popular kids'.

I said all those things for Blue. I do believe them, but I just...

it's just hard right now.

Excuse me if I don't act like my normal self or I don't say anything.

Understand life is very difficult for me right now.

I have so many self doubts, it worries me.

I fear it's turning into a minor depression.

I don't want that.