I bet all you pieces of shit are so happy this piece of shit is still alive. Worst day ever actually left me wanting to die. First off, the ImaDMS thing happened, I witnessed my grandfather die slowly from internal bleeding because the ambulance wouldn't get here quick enough (it was his 90th birthday. He lived a good *sniff* long life...), I took the time to look at the internet and envy how much better people like aSANSfangirl were at drawing than I ever will be, envying how much smarter and prettier and just better in general everyone was than me, I got in a fight with my best friend whom I've known for years, my dad got drunk and yelled at me - saying my grandpa died because I was too dumb to realize he was dying, and worst of all, I got beat up by a group of teenagers while they're sing things like "why don't you just die already" and "nobody loves you" and "useless" and nobody around me even tried to help me, some laughing and taking pictures or videos. I try to stay strong and hide my emotions, but some things are just too much for me. It hurts. I just don't want to feel the pain anymore. I can't keep my emotions and true thoughts and feelings bottled up anymore. I don't want to see anyone get hurt and I don't want to break anything, so my only other option is to take it out on myself, but I've felt enough pain today. I'm breaking my own mind from confusion and pain. I don't know what to do.