I miss the golden days of wattpad. When everything was simple. When wattpad wasn't toxic. When people actually cared about you. When people didn't backstab you and turn on you. When people were actually your friends. When roleplays were blooming. When there was never a dull moment.

I want those days to come back, but I know they will never. It's a fickle dream to have, yes, I may be dwelling on something impossible. I can always hope for the best and hope that time comes again.

I am going to be honest, I am not really on here because wattpad doesn't feel the same like it did anymore. It has been different for the past two years, it really hasn't connected with me like or had before. I really only ever reply to PMS or post chapters of my books, nothing else.

I do miss my old friends, the good times we had. No, we don't talk much anymore, life happens, things happens that prevent that from happening. If I could go back in time and have a redo I wouldn't hesitate to accept and fix everything I made a mess of.

I have grown as a person, the things I did in the past shouldn't hold weight to how people think about me. I wish we could just move on and forget about the past, it is nothing but pain and yes sometimes were happy, can't we just dwell on those?

This isn't directed at any one person, this is just a generalization of my feelings. I am sure many can understand this and have gone through the same.

For a long time I have bottle up my feelings and pushed them so far down that it doesn't bother me anymore. I try and happy, positive no matter what I feel. It is a struggle but if it makes others happy then I am okay with that.

I do miss all my old friends. I miss all those good times. I do wish to reconnect with those people, but alas I have no idea how nor for most am I able to due to reasons.

I just wanted to get this out. I will probs unpublish it later, who knows, whether you like it or not, my feelings are valid and I have a right to express them.

Late-ish night thought

So, thanks for reading this sappy chapter from me. I promise the next will be joyous, probably be gushing I finally completed a book.