|¤|

Why do I want to cry just by removing a rp book that I will never be in due to reasons . . . it's like, I get my hopes up way to much and when it all comes crashing down I can't deal with it. It just saddens me how excited I was for it and now, I will never be in it, no matter what I had planned or oc made out. Ugh, I hate feeling like this, but I can't help it, when I get so excited about something I put my everything in it. And when I never get tagged back or let to come back, it crushes me more than normal people.

I hate it, and I hate that about me, I just hate everything never goes my way and how I wanted it to go . . .

What could I have possibly done so horrible to deserve all this crap I get out through?