I try my best not to think about old friends, the ones who lost touch with me or blocked me. It hurts because this was a new year and I hoped that things would be better, they would try and make amends or apologize. I suppose I was asking for too much because I miss the old days when we were happy, good friends, laughing and joking about things. If I could go back and change what happened I wouldn't give it a second though and would absolutely do it. I have been keeping my self busy to make sure I don't get down in a sad hole again. Things haven't been the best but it doesn't matter, I don't want to make anyone upset. New year has made me be more reserve, focused on my writing and personal life nothing really else. I will probably regret posting this in the morning knowing me but oh well, just been keeping a lot in and just wanted to get this tiny bit out. Sorry to anyone who doesn't want to hear this stuff or hear me be sad or anything. I will probably unpublish this in the morning. Thanks for listening I guess. Bye guys.