I am done sugar coating everything and just brushing things of like they don't effect me, because they do.

Now, if you don't want to be my friend, just tell me.

STOP pretending to be my friend

I am sick of being used by people for what?

I get I am nice, and I care about everyone and I put them before myself

But it hurts to know that it is a one sided friendship

And that is on my part, never on yours

You make ME feel bad for leaving me out of stuff, even though you claim I am your friend, only because you don't know me?

Whose fault is that?

Not mine but YOURS

You never make any attempt to talk to me and you are to caught up with your other friends

You ignore me and act like I don't even exist

You always forget about me, yet you remember everyone else, specially the ones who comment little lovely messages to them!

And here I am struggling and only my TRUE FRIENDS care about me and they are the ones who talk to me and role play with me

Not the ones who never give me the time of day

I hate myself and my life, yet that doesn't seem to matter you

If you want to be my friend THEN MAKE THE ATTEMPT TO BE MY FRIEND

I am DONE always trying to be the perfect friend when I get walked all over.

I am tired of everyone one getting SPECIAL treatment and then I am just like there.

I know I am stupid but that doesn't mean it is okay to leave me out or be rude or ticked because of my dyslexia and not being able to get things

And I am never sorry for making you feel guilty, that is your fault for never making the effort, and you should feel guilty because I am hurt

I am hurting everyday

But it seems like that doesn't matter

Where are my little random supporting posts, appreciation comments, ones to say I'm a good friend or just random little notes I can always look at?

I hardly ever have them while everyone else is just spammed with love

It's not fair and it hurts

I am just done

I can't do this anymore

I am in tears everyday, knowing no matter how much you say you need to talk to me, you won't because I am not that important.

I am just trash that can be tossed to the side when you don't need me anymore

I am glad I have close friends who care about me and show it

Not just say it like you do

{And all y'all on my bio, this is not for you, you guys are everything I could never want and are the most amazing friends I could ask for. But i am directing this at others who need to hear it but I am so scared to tell it to their face}