Do you believe in fate?

Last night I had one of the worst nights in a long time. I was an actual mess and on the edge of giving up. I was so tired and, when I got home from school, I just laid in bed and moped.

A friend happened to message me and we talked about it. I feel pretty bad because I just emptied everything going on in my brain out to her which is a bit unfair on her.

I'm such a hopeless mess but hey all's good. I'm here right now. My friend is the best person on the planet because who knows maybe I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her messaging me last night. I mean, we all know I'd have wimped out at the last moment but let me appreciate her.

Anyways, more on the fate thing. I've been having a particularly shitty past few days and last night was especially bad. Then, this morning in tutor at school, my teacher mentions how the school was introducing one on one sessions we can have with someone who's sort of like a counsellor. What are the odds it would happen after my worst day in a long time?

So I spoke to my tutor. I just said I've been "feeling off for a while" and "feel like I can't talk to anybody in school" so maybe I'll start talking to somebody. She said she wouldn't tell anybody and the only people who needed to know were me, her and the person I spoke to (obviously).

Is this fate?

But then again... the school rarely goes through with things like this. I might not get the chance to even talk to anybody. Thinking a bit more positively about this, let's say that it's just good that I spoke to my tutor about it, even if I barely said anything. If I don't get to talk to anybody, it's not my fault. Opening up is good. Even if it's not to your family and just to a stranger. It's a big step. If I can do this, so can you.