today was a hard day,
I saw my best friend.. she was different
I noticed something she never would seem to do, scars...small but still there
I look around and wonder why you would do this?
to me, her, my friends
why are you so cruel...
we're good kids, we try our best
but little did I know how you did what you did and why..
maybe this was just God testing me,
seeing if I was strong enough for the fight
I've been a few weeks clean,
how could I be ready for a test of my friendship if I just got out of it...
I don't know..
whatever you are planning for me God,
can you just mend this porcelain heart?

in Jesus name,
amen