June 4th 20X8.

When I gained my awareness back.

Three man body were lying on the ground.

Some sobbing sound behind my back.

There, the boy looking at me with admiration with his sparkling blurry big brown eyes full of water.

Maybe.....that's the biggest mistake I had made.

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August 10th 20X8.

After the "accident", I sometime found the boy at the corner of my class door. At first, I didn't mind at all. I thought he was one of my fan or something.

If I had to say, I could be considered attractive to the girls but I didn't think I would have a male fan.

He came up more often. Sitting at a table near mine still in a respectable distance at lunch time and at the library. Walked behind and watched me go home after classes. Behind a pillar intensely look at me. I thought he has something to say.

So I decided to meet him.

I waited for him at the roof top, where I knew for sure no one would come. I thought for his shyness that all.

By the way, I hadn't had the chance to catch his name.

The creek sound of the door waked me from my thought.

There he was.

Guess he needed his time to gather the word.

_ Thank you for waiting, senpai......

He poked two fingers together, sometime looked up but immediately lowered his head when our eyes occasionally met.

_ Sorry, I didn't catch your name.

_ Ah....right....It's Yuki-i....It's Yuki....
desu.......

_ Ah, so it's Yuki-kun. Listen here, I appreciate your admiration toward me. But please stop. It bother me and my private life.

_ This may sound weird. Can you stop it?

There I said it.

I felt guilty.........he looked shock.

_ Senpai.........what do you mean....?

_ I mean what i said Yuki-kun.

He felt silent, then looking at his foot.

_ But......I like you.......no....

_ I l-love y-you.........I LOVE YOU!

_ I know it must be love by the time I look at you. IT MUST BE IT!!!

Yuki acted so sudden, everything was processing so fast.......

_ What's wrong with wanna be there with someone you love?!

_ But we're boys!

_ I DONT CARE!! ALL I CARE IS I LOVE YOU!! I WANT YOU!!

_ STOP THIS NONSENSE!!! IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA STOP THAT, I WILL CALL THE POLICE!!

With that, I walked past him. Sorry not sorry. I don't like gay! ( don't hate me plz, just bear with it in this story ><)

I missed the crooked smile on his face the last moment.

_ I've done nothing wrong......

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_If you can be mine......

_ ........Then I have to take you away.....

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November 10th 20X8

Three months later.

Weird events keep happening....

My best friend had gone missing. Some student say he was sick, some say he changed school, lots of reasons for his absent. It had been about a week......I was so worry......I knew him too well to believe he would drop out or cut classes. He looked up for his parent's hope so much. Sometime it pushed him too hard to be the top class.

Now that's another problem. Even my sister "go on a holiday" was what my mom said; "She goes abroad to study, you should worry not.". I couldn't trust that lie from the sadness in her eyes. I feel something really wrong was occur..........althought,...I knew nothing.

Not a single letter, not a pronounce, I had to do something. The freak had stopped being spotted, and three months later my sis and friend gone vanish........This mean nothing.

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March 3th 20X9.

 I couldn't take this anymore!

Now is my girlfriend gone missing.

My grade drops.

My mom forces a smile on her face everyday.

Dad goes drunk till late night.

He still a good father. He supports mom to be strong, he works a lot to go over the pain.

Mom doesn't complain.

Dad goes harsh with me these day.

Its near my important test. I have to over come all this as soon as possible.

We 're still a happy family.

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June 4th 20X9.

Once day, dad hit me. Cuz I was bad. He was stress, real stress.

I failed my exam.

His company bankrupted.

That night, when he got home. He was wound.

A stab wound on his stomach.

Mom cried so much.

I didn't know how to comfort her.

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June 17th 20X9.

We decide to move house to different country. Begin a new life. A better work for dad, a better life for mom and me.

My whole class cast a party.

My classmates cried so much. They wished me good luck, I received gifts and hugs from all members.

I cried from happiness. Still smiled to show them how strong I am.

What made me worry................It's the figure at the door.

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After the party I immediately went back home.

The cold wind nearly freeze me to death. The surrounding was dark as ever. So dark for my liking.

A shadow followed my path.

Just a passer. I didn't think much.

The cold made me shiver and the thought of a warm home was  waiting cover my mind.

Hot breath behind my neck.

A handkerchief cover my nose and mouth.

Can't scream for help.

I fainted on the ground in the laugh of someone.

Someone familiar....

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I waked up in strange room. Strange smell. Strange furniture.

Not my room.

This place was so plain and dark. Where were the windows?

Beneath me was some real soft and comfort big bed.

Why my hands got tied up?

Was I been kidnapped?

For what?

Money? Couldn't be.

I needed to get out of here.

How long had I been sleeping? I wasn't sure then.

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Someone is lying next to me?!

Their warm touch my skin.

I frown when a pair of hands circle around my waist. Pull me closer to their chest.

They sniff behind my neck. Nuzzle in more, finding a comfortable spot.

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_ What do you want? Who are you?!

They nuzzle in the crook of my neck one more before speaking up near my ear, which tickle me.

_ You forget me. It hurts me a lot, senpai~

This voice......

_ Why you do this?

The calmer I be, the better information I get. 

_ Humm, what else could it be? But-I want you to make a guess.

They poke my cheek lightly while waiting for my answer.

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_ It's because I reject you, isn't it?

Don't tell me that's the reason......

_ Bingo!

_ Senpai is so smart~

He pulls me into a hug.

_ I miss you so much! I think about you everyday, even now. 

Yuki rubs his face to my neck affectionally.

..............I want to slap him.......but my hands and my legs are all tied...

_Did my sis, my girl and my friend disappearance have something to do with you?

........please...........tell me it's not what I am thinking.......

_ They get in my way. They are too friendly to you! That makes me mad!

He grit his teeth. Soon it stop. He continuous.

_ That's why I get rid of them for you~

......................................................I can't believe this........

_ ......You did that because you don't like them...?

He nod.

_ You must be kidding me.......

I protest.......how could he........HOW COULD HE DO THAT TO MY BELOVED?!?!

I glare at the man.

_ Who give you the permission to touch them?

_ I do what I have to.

I can't take this anymore........

_ WHO THE FUCK YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TOOK AWAY MY PEOPLE?!?!

_ YOU KNOW SHIT ABOUT ME!!!

_ I know everything about you! About your past gifted child, your dad company bankrupted, your habits, your favorite color, your favorite stuffed toy, your drawings, how you title your head to the side when you confuse, when you hide your emotion for fear it would hurt someone, your dad hit you.....I KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU!!

I am speechless.

My dad's wound......

_ You stab my dad......

_ ...he hit you.

_ HE IS MY DAD. WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?!?!

He cut me off by kissing me hard.