You drove me insane,
The sound of your laugh was beautiful,
Your smile made me love you even more,

But as time went on you changed,
The laugh turned evil,
The smile became forced,

I was naive to think I could help you,
That I could magically bring the old you back,

That's just it though,
I did everything I could for you,
Financially and emotionally,
I supported you through it all,

Funny thing is now you notice,
It took you four long months,
Four months later you finally see my worth,

A lot has changed,
I realized that I will always care about you,
But the love I once felt is gone,

I look at you,
The same jet black hair,
Same honey brown eyes,

I can't lie,
I'm tempted to forgive you,
To try one more time,
Just to say I have my best friend back,
But I know that isn't right,

The way I feel now wouldn't make it right,
You look the same,
The way I feel towards you though is different,

I look at everything,
Everything little Ayanna used to adore,
And see nothing that I love anymore,

The spark as they say is gone,
Replaced with sadness,
Sadness because this is what it feels like now,

When I look at you I remember everything,
The good,
The bad,
But most importantly I remember one thing,

I remember why I left you,
The pain I felt,
Because I lost you was part of it yes,

But what hurt more wasn't you,
It was me realizing I lost myself,
I lost who I was trying to help you find yourself,

I put everything into you,
My happiness was in your hands,

And it sucks when the one person who holds all of you,
Can so easily just ruin you,
And be so ignorant,

That when your crying to them,
When your begging them to stop,
They just don't care to see what they're doing,

I would have done anything for you,
And the funny thing is,
You wouldn't have appreciated it,

You would sit there,
Day after day,
And belittle me,

But wanna come back four months later,
When I'm trying to move on,
And say now you truly see me,

I know you better than anyone else,
You expect me to run back,
To forgive you,
But that isn't gonna happen,

Because I'm not in love with you anymore,

I always told you,
One day I'm gonna leave,
And your gonna regret everything,

Well this is it,
Me leaving,
Moving on with my life,

I know I'm not the prettiest,
Definitely not the brightest,
But I do know I'll meet someone who will love me,

Because I am capable of having real love,
And so are you,

I don't hold anger,
My heart could never hate you,
I do though feel sorry for you,

You still haven't truly changed,
But to be honest,
I never expected you to,

Elijah if we never speak again just know one thing,
You taught me so much,
About people,
About myself,

Life doesn't always go as planned,
It has a fucked up way of going about things,

I hope you find happiness though,
With someone else,
But also with yourself,

I always told you one thing,
I repeated it to you over and over again,

My one wish is in the end,
When everything is over,
That you can look at yourself,
In the mirror,
And be content with what you see,

To be happy with what is looking back at you,
But you gotta figure it out on your own now,

I tried,
I really did.