Villain

It's so simple to be a villain. There's no pressure of making sure everything you do is seen in a good way. As a villain, everyone always expects the worst from you. When you're a villain you can do literally anything because it's harder to think less of someone you already care very little about. Being a villain means you can wear all black and nobody questions if your goth, punk, or depressed. Being a villain means I can live in isolation without getting questions about my mental health and I'm not called a hermit. Being a villain allows me to commit any crime I want, and people already hate me so it's no big deal.

For years I tried. For years I did everything I could to be good. For years my goal was to be a people-pleaser. For years I cried alone wondering what I was doing wrong to make others hate me. For years I bent over backwards to be there and help my 'friends' without asking for anything in return- not even a shoulder to lean on. For years I tried to do anything to get people to stop calling me a monster.

But then I finally listened. They always called me a monster, so might as well become one, right? I might as well give in to all the darkness and depression and let it control me. I might as well go ahead and bash his head in since he decided to mess with me. I might as well fo crazy and finally be free of the mental cage I'd been locked in. I might as well give him a taste of his own medicine.

See? It's so easy to become a villain. It's so simple. The only part that's hard is when you can't fall asleep and you demons catch up to you.

-JG

Originally wrote on 5/19/2020