why do i do this to myself

why do i walk into something expecting different

why do i shut up clam up say nothing forget about myself prioritize other people i'm tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired of prioritizing other people i'm tired of not being heard i'm tired of not being listened to what's the problem is it me

please

please

i'm just begging

you to listen

to care

to give a FUCK

i-

i'm so tired of expecting to be listened to of being told that people are listening when the truth is

no one

is