Waiting for someone to call and ask me if i am ok.
Waiting for a reply after they read my hi.
Waiting to get noticed in a crowd full of people.
Waiting for a friendly smile to smile in my direction.
Waiting for you to say hi when online.

I can't keep friends as i am scared they will see the real me.
I am scared they will leave me after knowing i only pretend to smile when with them.
I am waiting for this pain to go away. I am waiting for all this to end.

I just want to feel wanted but who am I kidding, i can be replaced in a blink of a eye.
I don't feel wanted. I don't feel seen.

I am so tired of being lonely in a sea of people. I am so tired of crying alone and smiling in front of everyone.

I want to scream 'fuck you'. But a lady doesn't curse.
I just want to walk away but i have shackle of responsibilities around my ankle.
I am drowning in work which can very easily be paid to do. I am stuck in one place like a bird in a cage.
Set me free as i want to spread my wings and fly like a free bird. Don't cage me and place me on a mantle to decorate your home.