I can't remember the last time I slept at night. I sleep in a room with complete silence and wonder if anyone is awake. I walk around my house and try to see if anyone can give me company at night but everyone sleeps at night ..
Everyone but me...
I wonder if anyone is interested to talk to me or sing me a lullaby. Or tell me a story to make me fall asleep.. who am I kidding no one cares.

No one knows the state of my mind. I have become this nocturnal animal whose mind wonders to all directions, distracting myself from reality.
Listening to music helped for sometime, silencing my thoughts. Silencing the voices which scream for attention or for someone to glance at me. Making me feel worth it.
I stay awake in bed going through different scenarios of my present, my past and wondering about my future..
Sometimes I wish my future will be different from what it is right now. But reality hits me and I remember me wondering about the exact same thing in the past.. hoping seems such a waste of time.

I just want to sleep without thinking of anything in my mind. I want to erase everything from my mind and have a peaceful sleep.
Atleast for a few hours
Or
For sleep to never get up.