I'm not going to sit here and lie right now okay. Look I honestly feel that I'm more honest online than anywhere else and right now I need to be honest. I'm not perfectly fine okay. I'm really not. My best friend changed schools and she was one of the many reasons I even try. Isn't family supposed to accept their children's interest? Well mine doesn't. They tell me oh the lgbt people are weird. They don't know that I'm one of those people. They wouldn't accept me. I'm scared. My siblings already hate me I don't need the rest of my family too. My dad thought it would be great to tell me that he didn't anything about my meeting. The meeting for a trip to Catalina Island. I wanted to go but he 'forgot.' Then he decides to blame everything on me when I was in my favorite room in the house. He called me unintelligent. He called me fat and he called me useless. Then he wants to ask are you okay. Of course I'm not okay! But what did I say. I said I'm fine. Because everything's just so fine you insulted me and damaged my self-esteem. My brother and sister watched him insult me to my face and told me "It's okay." No it's not. I already get bullied and made fun of at school. A person nearly killed me for sitting next to them. And they expect me to be FINE! I can't do it. I'm really close to just becoming a mute. No one listens to me anyway. I'm also a so called emotionless emo nobody. They call me a robot because I can't smile or cry anymore. It's not my fault I'm like this. I didn't choose this. But there's one person I need to say sorry to.

canyoubemyfour I'm sorry. I wasn't perfectly fine. The fact that it even happened was bad for me. I'm sorry for lying.