And i just had an argument with the english teacher
Great
Tgis week is fucking great
Ive agrued with her like the thitd time this week
I dont know how much linger i can last all this bullshit
We were supposed to take a test and it had a speaking part, we had to choose a topic to talk about for one minute, but i forgot about it
And the teacher veing done with my bullshit just send be back and didnt even give me a chance to choose a topic to talk about. I got a zero on the speaking part
But i think most of you know i can speak in english. I know how to talk, i do paragraphs a lot, heck, im even thinking in english sometimes, all i watch is in english despite me geing from middle europe
I know the pronounciation, i know it all, and she knows that i do all this but just
She wouldnt let me

I hear classmates talking about me in the classroom
Im currently locked on the toilets, crying
Its not just that, i have arguedbwith several more teachers too, but im always sorry for what ive done. Im sorry to the teachers that they have to deal with me
I dont want to be like this
I dont want to be a person who just angers everyone and messes it all up
But i do
Everytime

Im also supposed to get accepted to a nother school, like, im not sure how its called in english but high school?
The shit you go to when youre 16
And they have all pretty harsh tests to get accepet
And ive gor to learn, but i just dont remember nothing
I try to keep myaelf calm, that im somehow gonna make it, but it isnt helping
Every week i learn, again and again and Its starting to hurt
Repeating the same fucking shit everytime but i just dont know
Most teachers hate me because i draw in the classes all the time but its the only way i can keep myself at least a bit calmer, plus um listening to them, but they just dont understand that someone can listen and draw at the same time

Fucking hell i dont have any tissues
And my hoodie is wet
Great

Its ribging next houf
I think we have german class now
Shit
Well thats even better than english IM I RIGHT
NO ITS FUCKING NOT
I HAVE THE GERMAN CLASS
WHY DONI EVEN HAVE TO LEAR IT
I WONT USE THE FUCKING LANGUAGE
PLUS THEBTEACGER IS EVEN A BIGGER ASSHOLE THAN THE ENGLISH INE

And here it is again
Me getting pissed for seemingly no reasoin
I just yell at everyone all the time
Always
The kids in class are looking at me as if i was an abomination
Everytime i start again, their looks are

One day this will all eng
One day ill be able to do what i want without slowly going insane