"Ya know, you almost broke my trust..."

That's a word that I never thought in my life would be heard from someone.

So far in my life, I've tried to be respectful towards everyone. I follow orders, keep everyone comfortable, not snitching, saying no lies. Even if it cost my own wellbeing.

I've broken up before, but it never really hurts me as it was with a logical, reasonable reason. Even the death of family members hasn't given me the thousand yard stare. I cried, yes, but I quickly bounced back and kept carrying on with my life, while helping others to accept it.

But, i would never have thought that the words of me breaking someone's trust would be the one who broke me down..... Even worse, it came from my best friend. The one that always got my back. The thought of me almost breaking his trust towards me after spending 23 years together, through thick and thin, it just.......breaks me....

Other people? Yes, i don't really care. They don't know me well enough to really trust me so i understand that, but someone that's basically been in my entire life? I've failed him...

I don't have anything good going for me. No looks, no talents, no skills, but at least I can keep secrets, right? At least that's enough, well, that's what I thought before.

But, now..... Yeah, i am just a waste of oxygen....

If you're reading this, I'm sorry bro. I didn't know it would be like this. If you are disappointed and will never trust me again after this, I understand that. It would be also for your own good. Just want to let you know, I'm sorry i can't be the friend that you can trust again, I'm sorry for breaking your trust, and still love you as a friend, and as a brother from another mother.