Okay. Okay. You may read the title, and think: Well- this person is probably just an attention seeker for writing this (mostly the latter part)
...okay maybe not. However, I know a person who did something like that to a friend of mine.. I'm Not gonna go further into this here. No.

So basically, I've always been a weird kid. ..well, apparently. I mean, as far as I can remember.. there's been people who were dear to me, I've lost them.. however.

I remember one of my childhood friends back then, they were a great person to be with, however.. they just turned against me and went with someone else.

I mean, the same thing (okay, something similar) happened to me in secondary school. However, maybe it was my fault too.. but I.. I dont know. I remember we had a good laugh always. Maybe I did something really wrong for them to be with someone else. Maybe they weren't really supposed to be my friend. However, I  don't know.

Oh well.. forward to now, my friend from secondary school is also on the same school I am now. I graduated some years ago and now.. well.. ya know.

Anyway, back to secondary school. I remember being with someone else aswell, with the friend. Since they actually weren't there a lot of times and I'd be alone, I used to hang out with someone from the other class. I dont want to say names so..

basically, I don't know why I ever hung out with them, maybe it was because I just didn't want to just be alone.. but I'm pretty sure they were a bit toxic. (Maybe I shouldn't just say stuff like that.. for real tho.)

Basically, this is how most of the breaks went: I went to the place with that person, he talked about stuff, and whenever I wanted to talk he just cut me up.. or said that my voice just sounds bloody awful. ..maybe some things are a bit too much, but I once remembered him trying to break my fingers "just for fun" and.. well gladly they didn't succeed. Oh whelp.

Okay enough about that person, it sounds a bit too much of a vent or something. Maybe I just had to do that. Hmh.

Anyway, I think I may have developed some sort of weird issue because of stuff like that. ..it's just that I don't feel like it.

Anyway 2.0, I actually miss the people who genuinely liked to hang out with me. The other thing is, there will be these thoughts. "Why do they even still want to hang out with me? They probably made a better relationship with someone else so why bother with me" ...and so on.

Maybe this is normal, but it doesn't feel like it.

Also, I miss the friends I made in last year's class.. (the one from 2019/2020, that is.) Honestly, they were the best thing that actually happened to me.. sure, we have some differences, but in the end.. it just was great. Thank you guys for that. I hope we'll see each other soon. And.. I'm just.. I'm Honestly crying right now.

They were there for me, even if I did some stupid stuff.. and to any of them reading this, thank you for the time. Don't do anything stupid and stay strong. Okay?