I hate this question, it's not that I don't like asking people this question, it's just that I don't want to be the one that's being asked that.

The question is: "Are you okay?"

This is the one of the few questions that I would never  ask myself.

Why? Well because it's the question that easily makes me cry, the question that makes me sad. Whenever I feel fine or I try to feel okay, the moment someone asks me that question- I just look away, breath deep, and try not to cry.

It usually fails, the tactics I use never work. Because I always look visibly upset and sad to whoever asked me that. I don't like looking like a sensitive crybaby, I want some backbone for myself, but with that specific question... it's like I never had a hard shell at all.

Just thinking about the question makes me cry. I have yet to find out why- why this question brings my mood down from 0-100.