So, turns out me yelling at my best friend because he didn't tell me is now a freaking misunderstanding. The only reason why I'm mad at him was because he didn't tell me. I'm not mad at him cause he's gay. And now I'm even more depressed cause you know what? I was actually apart of a group that liked me for me! FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I HAD A GROUP WHERE I WAS OK! But now? Even less people like me. And I may have lost a friend entirely. So yay me.

What do I do? Right now I feel like I don't belong anywhere with anyone. Do I deserve these things? Cause all I seem to do is hurt others, right? Yet, I'm still here meaning that there are still people who care about me. I feel like I've lost my best school friend, because she hardly talks to me anymore, and lately I just feel mad if we even talk sometimes... I just feel in the wrong, like i'm the one that did all the wrong.

I'm not sure anymore of what to do. I don't want to be here, but I do at the same time. I just want things to go back to normal. But maybe they won't. I guess all I can do is hope. Thanks for reading my peeps! See y'all later!~