I haven't been updating my stories on wattpad lately even when I have time.

Lately I haven't been able to enjoy the thing I enjoy most like swim team, guitar, and even writing is starting to become bland.

I don't know why and it's really tearing me apart.

I'm scared to cry and tell other people about my problems. Most of my problems are really petty and stupid. I'm here crying about what happened to my last year while some people are staving, and I just feel like a horrible person.

Or maybe it's just because I haven't eaten much. I can't tell anymore.

But recently I haven't been sad, or happy. I just feel nothing, a really uneasy feeling of emptiness that I don't like.

I have been talking to people but it won't go away, I feel so guilty but I don't know why.

I really just want to cry but I can't.