Basically, I used to be a fangirl that squealed at how cute Syaoran was all the time.

In fact, so much that I mainly loved him for his cuteness.

I never realized until I thought about it.

I thought I loved Syaoran for his kindness, but then...how do you explain why I didn't fall for Raku?

Raku is just as selfless....

And I felt more affection towards Rito than Raku, despite that Rito wasn't as selfless.

So I realized there.

It was because of cuteness.

So I eliminated my feelings of how cute Syaoran was, and surprisingly, it was as though I didn't love him anymore.

I could easily see him as just a friend.

I decided to build up affection by reading more TC while dismissing my thoughts of him being cute.

But thanks to the spoilers I read before everything got serious (crew arrives at Tokyo) and how much I concentrated on loving him by his appearance before,

It wasn't much of a success.

I still love Syaoran, and the affection came around slowly, just not to the point where I really love him. :(

Also, it was because I read 7 or 8 chapters of Niraikanai Hen beforehand.

Well, considering all the spoilers...

I KNOW that my affection towards Syaoran would be much stronger if only I hadn't read all of that spoilers.

I mean, I'm GLAD that I read some of them, but I read TOO much.

I was a foolish child.