*disclaimer* sorry for any typos i had typed this up really fast.

I hate to start this book on a sad note but i cannot covey the way feel. I was at church on Thursday for M12 and our pastor was having a lesson on good people to fill your life with. So it was a terrible lesson and portrayed all the wrong lessons and teachings. I thought it was terrible the things he said didn't seem christian at all. So continuing with the story i went home thinking all was well. All was not well.

The next day at school i had a weird sign, a giant X was floating in the sky. Made by condensed water trails, probably made by planes. I knew something strange was going to happen. I could feel it, in my gut. So school was going by as usual. We did some freaky science experiments outside. Like normal 8th graders. So then i went back to my seat and realized someone had taken my pencil so i had to borrow another one. The i spotted a weird bracelet on the floor, being a me i picked it up and proclaimed it mine. I felt as if this was meant for the sign in the sky. It seemed logical at the time. I lost a pencil and gained a bracelet. win win

Little did i know of the plotting behind me

So the rest of the school day passes all normal like and i'm excited to go home. It was math and i was ready to be out of there. Then my so called "friend" approached me, writing on a piece of paper

Jean, do you remember(pastor's name)'s lesson yesterday.

well i've been thinking.

(Btw this girl also goes to M12 with me)

He had said we should surround ourselves with good people, well i've been thinking and i feel i should tell you this.

I think your a bad person and i don't want to be your friend anymore.

I was confused, and a bit mad that she thought i was a bad person, i calmly wrote her a note back explained how i felt about the matter. Since she sits behind me she took it, she didn't even bother looking at it. Crumpled it up and threw it away.

That's also when i lost it. See the note she wrote is not the same as i wrote it above this. Since she threw it away i no longer remember what words she'd wrote, but they were hurtful. Soul crushing even.

Now i like to think i'm a good strong person, and i hate to cry. More than anything. I was barely keeping myself together. My good wonderful friend bunny was hugging me and helped me down the hall. One of the transition teachers noticed me and asked if i was ok. That's when i lost all composer. The tears would no stop. I wiped them away pressing my fist into my eye to try desperately to make them stop. Another teacher noticed this and grabbed me pulling me into a classroom. My teachers probably think i"m stupid now. They probably think i'm weak..

I don't care... i lost a friend

I also didn't go to connections that day...

The next monday she had texted the group(not me) that she was sick with the flu. Weird nonetheless. The next day she came into the classroom. I had planned to be even with her. I wouldn't be mean. I just would't be her friend anymore.

I asked her if she was felling better, out of the goodness in my heart, right? She turned to face me. The look of disgust lay twisted on her face. She cocked her eyebrow at me before turning away. She didn't talk to me after than. That's where i am right now.. That's when i knew, she didn't feel the same.

She absolutely hated me