Or more so...remembrance of things I don't want to remember.

First is the obvious: my first trip to the hospital/ER. Long story short, a horse back kicked me in my forehead when I was 3-4 years old. A memory I'll never forget.

Second, another obvious one. When I broke my leg on a bike. It got stuck in a bicycle spoke and split right in two. Bones completely broke in half and needed 3 separate casts.

Third...this is more of an ongoing terror of mine. I've dealt with it all my life and it still scares me. My parent's constant arguing, yelling, fighting and overall obvious hate for each other. It's scarred me more than I would want to admit but...could you really blame me? I know I absolutely hate them sometimes but I couldn't ever imagine life without both of them. When my mom and dad decided that they would rather be separated it absolutely broke my heart. I didn't know what to feel. I screamed and cursed at him and wished to never see him again. The utter fear of my parents maybe having a full divorce scares me more than anything else in this world.

Last is all the memories of seeing people/animals dying. It's absolutely heartbreaking. I can't tell you how long I cried after my own aunt passed away right in front of me. Or how absolutely devastatingly terrible it is to spend a wonderful day at school, but come home to your own damn pet completely gone and motionless. I hate death, and I hate it more so when it's people or animals that are everything to me.

Anyways. These are the memories I cannot ever hope to forget. The ones that will haunt me until I die. I wish I could....I so wish I could forget....