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I regret making yesterday's chapter.... because today, around noon, there was an announcement for any student who wants to go to the front of the school. I heard something about a carreer, so I wasnt very interested. But at PE my teacher forced us to go out. I was beyond confused! But, like an outcast, I got the news from whispers around me. And oh god...

Almosy every single student was standing outside, when a hurse drove by followed by around fifty cars. The funeral had ended, and im assuming everyone was driving to the burrial that wasnt far from the school.

But it was undettling how silent it got once the hurse was in veiw. Not. A. Single. Person. Spoke.

Dont get me wrong, good job on respecting them! But this is my school we're talking about! Theres always the one or two that are talking. Or mumbling, whispering, ect.

And it was beyond depressing... as I whatched it drive by it felt like someone shot me... and I had to blink away tears... I didnt know her and yet I wanted to curl up and cry. But that was so godamn depressing.... that was one of my first thoughts... im not suee how to explain it other than I felt very depressed whatching them drive by. It was sweet to have every student say goodbyes before she's burried but I wish there was some way to enlighten the mood... even in the slightest...

Now I refused to cry, I held it in because its highschool, no one needs to know I have emotions. But I had so many memories flood my mind that i was about to fail at trying to hide it... I was thinking of what my flag seniors felt, her family, Aulora, and a large variety of other things...

But I suffered through it and stayed silent for about an hour... no emotion, no voice... just walking around with mt head low and hands in my pockets...

By lunch there were more rumors, ones that pissed me off to be honest.

Someone was laughing while they drove by. Laughing. Give me a name and ill laugh as they get slapped!

And... on social media, someone started talking shit about her... and our wonderful small community decided to leak that persons adress and number and said "lets go jump her!"

Arent we welcoming!?

Im dissapointed but proud at the same time...

Then after a long few periods I went home...

And immediately broke down! So thats great... im home alone so its ok...

So yeah. An updated peice to the last chapter... and once again

Rest in peace.

And support to the family!

And with that, I bid you a goodbye...