We signed up for classes earlier....

And why is it, that when people ask me what I want to do.... I get a mix of unknown emotions...

Signing up for the classes was fine, but the class I NEED... I... have to get a paper signed and be chosen through a list of other kids... and im scared.... what if I dont get it... what would I do next.... ill be back to square one with two years wasted... how would I even figure out what I want to do all over again... if I dont make it, my top two favorite things will be down the toilet...

I shouldnt- no I should be afraid of this! If I dont get a career I love ill be like my dad, miserable...

Being a writer will never work. Next best thing, helping people.

Not a doctor, not sure how id react around blood and shit... plus if they die on me ill never forgive myself.

Well technically id be a nurse, but point is its not for me!

Anywaaaaays, counceling and therapist-ing(?) Stands out to me.

And we took an online quiz thingy... it asks you a bunch of questions and when you submit them it gives you you key features and when you scroll down itll give you a list of possible careers.

I found it very funny pn how quickly I clicked the YEEEEAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!! on a writing career........ thats sad isnt it?

My features were Artistic, Social, and somethimg that started with an E.

On the downside, therapist work was at the bottom of the list.... but hey, at least its on there!

It was talking about Music therapists... where you mix music to help a patient! Not sure bout you, but that sounds FUCKING AMAZING! I WOULD LOVE TO DO THAT! The next one was art therapist, it was cool but eh...

Then I searched for counselors, and the third one down: Mental Ilnesses Councelor

The thing that Im most interested in!

AND! A university, in a small city not too far from here, has classes for it! And out of the part we drive through on vacation, its absolutly beautiful!

I feel like if they changed 'career' to job it'd be less stressful on a major leval!

"What job are you planning on applying for?"

Oh,  some form of helping people!

"What's going to be your career?"

Uuuuhhh...

See my point?

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nd what if I dont like Peer Mediation.... what would I do then.... what if I fail it.... would a psychology class even take me in if I had to retake the class since I failed... what if I fail the college class!?

Im getting ahead of myself......
No surprise there...

So mucb can go wrong and I have no idea how id fix it......

I guess Ill just have to wait and see......

And hope for the best.....