(I will not reveal what the pairing is to keep my friend KelseyRhodes2 from knowing exactly what my new Harry Potter OTP is!)

Pairing: Unknown.
From: Harry Potter.
Type: Slight angst.
Time/AU/Setting: In their fourth year (I think, pretty much during the time of The Goblet of Fire), same universe but one of them has Soteriophobia and is terrified of what the other will think of him, by a lake in the Forbidden Forest.
Disclaimer(s): Self-harm, mentions of suicidal thoughts, Boyxboy, characters do not belong to me.

Soteriophobe's POV

He's been......... doing......... amazing.......

No....... I can't think this way........

How would he react if he knew I had fallen for him.........

Surely not in a positive manor............

Currently I was in the forbidden forest, sitting near a lake. I was thinking of things I wish I hadn't.......

I started singing a muggle song I had heard of.

(Start music, Words in parentheses are things said in a echo-y voice)

"... I've been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

(Who can relate?)

I've been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die today...

I just wanna die...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die today...

And let me tell you why.

All this other shit I'm talkin' 'bout
They think they know it.
I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic.
And my life don't even matter..
I know it, I know it...
I know I'm hurting deep down, but can't show it...
I never had a place to call my own.
I never had a home.
Ain't nobody callin' my phone..

Where you been?
Where you at?
What's on your mind?
They say every life precious
But nobody care about mine...

I been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

(Who can relate?)

I been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die today...

I just wanna die...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die...

And let me tell you why.

It's the very first breath
When your head's been drowning underwater.
And it's the lightness in the air.
When you're there.
Chest to chest with a lover.
It's holding on,
Though the road's long
And seeing light in the darkest things.
And when you stare at your reflection.
Finally knowing who it is.
I know that you'll thank God you did.

I know where you been,
Where you are, where you goin'.
I know you're the reason I believe in life.
What's the day without a little night?
I'm just tryna shed a little light..

It can be hard...
It can be so hard...
But you gotta live right now...
You got everything to give right now...

I've been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

(Who can relate?)

I've been on the low...
I been taking my time...
I feel like I'm out of my mind...
It feel like my life ain't mine...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die today...

I just wanna die...

I don't wanna be alive...
I don't wanna be alive...
I just wanna die...

Pain don't hurt the same, I know...
The lane I travel feels alone...
But I'm moving 'til my legs give out...
And I see my tears melt in the snow...

I don't wanna cry...
I don't wanna cry anymore...
I wanna feel alive...

I don't even wanna die anymore......
Oh, I don't wanna......
I don't wanna.....
I don't even wanna die anymore..."

I started crying......

"Why??" I asked myself.

"Why can't I tell him?!" I shouted to myself, thinking I was alone in the forest.

I pulled out a small blade I kept usually in case of emergencies.

"I can't take it anymore.." I said quietly, as I started pressing the blade to my wrist.

'Useless.
Ugly.
Freak.
Annoying.
Gay.
Stupid.
Weak.
Pathetic.
Monster' I thought to myself, cutting the word "Monster" into my wrist.

"I really am a monster, aren't I?" I cried out.

I heard a noise.

I looked up to see him............

"You aren't a monster." He stated as he took a step closer to me.

"Y-yes I am!!" I shouted, tears streaming down my face.

"No. You're a great person. You just need to let everyone see it." He said, walking closer to me.

I started crying more. 'Why is he being nice to me? I'm a monster and I just shouted at him!........ Why can't i just be left to die............' I thought, wanting to stab myself at that moment.

So I tried......

Unfortunately he stopped me......

"Don't do it. You have little to die for. There's so many people who care about you...." he said hugging me.

"W-who would c-c-care about
s-somebody like m-me........" I said between sobs as he rocked me back and forth.

"..... I do....." he said and I did the worst thing I could have done.........

..........I kissed him.........

........I kissed him........

~~His POV~~

....... he kissed me.....

I was in shock for a few moments, so I didn't kiss back.

Then he started pulling away, so I pulled him back and crashed our lips together again.

It was amazing....

As we pulled away, cause ya know air is important, I stared into his eyes.

"I love you. I have loved you since we met. Please stop saying you're a monster." I said, feeling really sad.

"I-I'll try......" He said.

"W-will you be m-my boyfriend??" He asked shyly.

I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him.

"Of course!" I said after we pulled away.

Soon enough it was time to go to dinner.

We walked to the Great Hall hand in hand until I realized that we would have to tell our friends.....

"How are we going to tell everybody?" I asked feeling scared of what the others might think.

"However you're comfortable." He said.

"I think we should say that we have an announcement, if anybody is still talking I'll scream 'sexual intercourse', and just say that we are a couple." I said, giggling at the idea I had in case people were still talking.

"Sounds great." He said, chuckling slightly before kissing me on the cheek.

As we enter the Great Hall, students looked at us and whispered while staring at our hands.

"We have an announcement!!" I said quite loudly. They still whispered, so I tried my best not to laugh at my plan.

"SEXUAL INTERCOURSE." I screamed at the top of my lungs, making everybody look at me with questioning eyes.

He looked over at me and started chuckling.

"I didn't expect you to actually say it..." He said, trying to stop laughing.

"We are dating!" I shouted, raising our intertwined hands into the air.

"I don't believe it!"s, "Prove it!"s, and "No way!"s were heard so I tried thinking of a way to show them I wasn't lying.

He thought of a good idea.

He pushed my back towards him and smashed our lips together. I quickly kissed back, wrapping my arms around his neck.

As we pulled away, we could hear claps from the Gryffindor table. When we looked over we saw my friends clapping looking really happy for me. I started blushing when everybody else started clapping.

As we sat down together, because why not, we got plenty of "Congratulations"s and I laughed when my best friends warned my new boyfriend not to break my heart or else they'll make sure he'll regret it. 'Boyfriend.... that sounds great......' I thought to myself.

~~~The End~~~

If you can guess what my ship is I'll give you a shout out. Have an absolutely amazing day/night pups!!!!!!