Valentine's day.

The day full of love, full of happiness, full of joy, full of fluff, full of...

Who am I kidding, it was the day my parents died. Not that I'm extremely upset about it where I'll cry and become emo for the entire day, but it was still pretty sad.

I slowly put down the flowers I bought for them.

" Mom, can you see me? These are your favourite flowers. Is dad taking care of you?"

I was caught off guard when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I almost shrieked. I took a deep breath. It was just Killua.

"Killua, what are you doing here?"

I turned my head towards him, his mesmerising blue eyes staring right into mine. No matter how many times I look at him, I never get sick of it.

" I came to introduce myself to your parents."

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-_-

" Yo, I'm Killua, Killua Zoldyck."

Though the mood was depressing, he still managed to bring out a giggle from me.

" After getting to know Y/N, I changed for the better."

I wonder how mom is reacting. Laughing maybe. Approving of my taste, maybe. I could feel a small smile creeping up onto my face.

" Come on Killua, let's go. I'm getting a bit hungry."

He nodded, putting down some flowers before holding my hand in his. It's funny, his touch always sends a weird electric feeling. He isn't even using his nen.

" Where would you like to eat?"

" Hm, a cafe maybe."

I felt a sudden breeze, causing me to shiver.

" Baka, what's the point of tying a jacket to your waist but not wearing it when you're cold?"

I blushed a little, I mean it looks kinda cool. He untied the jacket for me and helped me put it on.

I love it when he spoils me.

I snuggled into the jacket. It had a little bit of his scent, making me feel a comfortable and cozy feeling.

We walked to a nearby cafe, and I got me some tae and kookies.

We ate in silence. It would usually be rare, since we're usually very talkative. Sometimes even talking with our mouth full. But not on Valentines.
Being quiet is normal.

I could feel his gaze though, but whenever I looked up his was staring outside.

It continued for a few minutes, me trying to catch him, while he's always looking outside. I had a sudden thought. ' Heh, I'll ask him.'

" What's so interesting outside?"

He turned his head to face me, before giving me a shrug.

'Wow, really?'

I finished the last of the cookies, and drank my tea. I loved tea as much as I love Killua, which says a lot.

We left the cafe, walking back to an apartment Killua got. I felt him give my hand a slight squeeze, and when I looked at him, his pale skin was tainted with red.

Cute.

" What is it?" I showed him a small smile. He would be very, very, caring and would do a bunch of things that makes me soft on Valentines. Happened every year. Though, it was the first time he actually followed me to see my parents.

I showed him a smile to show him I was fine, and squeezed his hand back. I watched his face become redder than an apple. I giggled.

When we reached the door step, Killua took out his keys. I heard the familiar jingle they made. It sort of had the weird feeling of home. Since Killua is a hunter, he would do jobs sometimes and and occasionally, it could last for a very long time. The longest was an entire year. I, on the other hand, was a nen user, but not a hunter. I tried the test once, but failed at the final phase. I didn't really bother to try again, since I only did it because I was bored.

I stepped inside the apartment, taking off my sneakers.

' I'll just laze around today. ' I thought.

I stretched my arms and back, turning on the television. Killua headed off to the kitchen. He was probably going to make chocolate again.

Because he loved chocolate, he decided to learn how to make them. Since he always buys and eat a lot of them, it wasn't always in stock.

I had a sweet tooth too, so he usually made them for me as well.
Though we would always fight for the last chocolate.

The television didn't really have anything interesting and entertaining. Some variety shows here and there, but none of them caught my eye.

I sighed, before feeling cold again.

' It's not even raining, why is it so cold?' I thought. I jumped a little, hearing a familiar ringtone. Killua's phone was ringing.

" Killua! Your phone!" I shouted. I heard him groan from the kitchen, and he came out and answered the call.

I didn't hear what he said, but he was suddenly packing his bag and putting on his shoes.

" Where are you going?"

" I got another job, it's an emergency and I need to go there now."

He opened the door, but he didn't leave yet. He gave me a kiss on my forehead.

" I'm sorry I can't stay." he whispered.

I shook my head slowly. " It's okay, make sure to take care of yourself."

He gave me a sad smile. " I love you."

He left quickly before I could give him a reply. Though he wasn't there, the words still came out.

" I love you too."

But a week passed.
A month passed.
A year passed.

Another year passed.
And another.

He didn't come back.
I knew nothing about his mission. Who assigned him the job? What was the job about? Where would he have to go?

The first week, I didn't contact him at all. I knew that a week is usually normal for a mission. Seeing my calls would make him worried.

The second week, I sent him a message. I didn't get a reply, but I decided to wait. The mission is probably going to take longer, I thought.

The third week and fourth week passed.

' It's probably one of those really long jobs again.' I sighed at the thought.

I sent him another text message after the third month passed. He didn't see any of the messages yet.

' Maybe the job required him to surrender his phone.'

I continued waiting, wishing for him to appear at the door step the next day.

4 months passed, and it was his birthday. I got him a present, in case he would return. He didn't. I tried calling and sending him texts, I got no response.

6 months passed. It was August.

A year passed. It was Valentines again.
He wasn't back.

" Maybe this job is like the previous one he had. But harder." This time I said it outloud.

I knew I was just trying to convince myself.

I remembered going to see my parents. I remembered asking them if he was alright.

A few more months passed.
And it was another year.

I decided to call his friends, for any information about him. None of them responded.

The hope of him appearing and coming back was vanishing. Part of my mind tried to hold on to that hope, but the other was giving up.

I believed he was strong. I knew he was.
Even without nen he's strong.

I had to continue believing.

But as the New Year arrived...

It meant it was going to be three years.
Since I last saw him.

I didn't go out often during the second year. I thought that he was going to come back anytime and I refused to leave so I could welcome him back.

I spent most of my time sitting on the bed. Wrapping myself in multiple blankets and one of his jackets.

It was getting colder without him.

It was just the day before Valentines. I heard someone knocking on the door.

Maybe I wasn't right in my head anymore.

I shouted his name, and opened the door.

But it wasn't his smile that greeted me.

It was your friend, Killua. It was Leorio.

But I was still grateful. He probably knew why you took so long Killua.

Maybe he saw my state. How thin I got. My face was covered with tear stains. Maybe he saw my smile, my smile that was so hopeful.

Killua, I really wished you didn't leave for that job. Who knew that those words and that kiss on my forehead would be our last.

I remember Leorio, his eyes avoided mine. I kept on wishing, so he had to tell me.

" Killua is gone. He's not coming back."

Killua, you didn't even get to hear what I said when you left. Even though you could probably guess.

I was wearing your jacket when I opened the door.

I remember my smile dropping in a split second.

I remember tears.

I remember your smile.

But I couldn't remember what happened next.

My entire world shut down without you.