VENT WARNING!! SUPER EMOTIONAL DRAMA PLUS LOTS OF VENTING AND MAYBE SWEARING AND... LOTS OF OTHER STUFF.

Okay I'm really sorry I've been inactive for the past... nearly a week. There are a bunch of reasons why, and I'll try to list them for you.

1. All my major exams are at the most one and a half weeks away, I've been studying every hour of the day

2. All my free time I've been trying to read KotLC while also trying to be on Wattpad and trying to spend time with family AND trying to sleep and not stay up, I'm literally sick from staying up.

3. I'm going to have an emotional breakdown any day now, I've cried and almost cried at least ten times in the past week, I haven't found any joy on being on Wattpad. I feel like no one cares anymore. There was a time I would get 50+ notifs each time I checked wp, and that was when I checked three times a day. Now, I'm checking three times, and I get about three notifs each time. I won't hide it, it's depressing.

4. I've cried too much for my mother's stupid expectations, she keeps saying, "I KNOW YOU CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS CAN YOU STOP BEING SO CARELESS!?" and then, next moment we're eating together and she's like, "There's no reason to worry. You're not worrying, right?" 

I feel like I might cry now and KotLC is the only thing that stops me from being depressed. I've gone through almost all the books at a blinding rate, and I don't know what I'm going to do without it. I even wanted to draw Silveny and Greyfell earlier today but then I mean who's got the goddamn time to draw some alicorns?

I'm sorry for swearing I hate swearing it was a habit I slipped into last year and I've been trying to drop it, but every time something bad happens to me in real life, either I think or I mutter, 'what the fuck.' And it's killing me. I don't want to curse and be hated. I mean literally everyone I know curses. But still.

I don't want to dump all this stuff on you guys which is why the vent warning is up there.

Goodnight.

I don't know when I'll next be on.

I'm going to read KotLC.

I hope it calms me down.

I love you.

I'm sorry I'm like this.