(Play the above song.... Actually might be too short for this whole thing, haha...)

(You may choose to skip this entire long story, but if you feel inclined to read it, please do. I wrote this for some of you who have the same issues as me...)

Hey guys. This part is going to be more of a heart-felt chappie for anyone and everyone. Not from a specific Fandom.

How many of you feel... Rejected? Lonely? Feel like everyone's forgotten you? You don't need to say anything, but if you want to, go ahead. No one will judge.

Well, let me tell you a personal story that I was never planning to tell anyone, well, two people know this, but now you're all about to find out. I don't need any sort of response to this story. But what I do want you all to take from this is my life lesson in the end.

I'm fifteen years old. Turning sixteen... Mm, soon enough.

I'm at that age at which studies have shown teens have the most hormones and emotions. Well, it was last year, I think, people who know me see me just going about my life, being happy and quirky as usual. I don't know, there was just something about my family that didn't seem right to me that always seemed right and perfect to everyone.

I'm also a middle child. Some of you might groan in understanding. Oh yeah. I've been there. My little sister is always my mom's favorite and my older brother is my dad's favorite. Then there's me. I can't choose sides when it comes to defending. My parents never always got along, and having a best friend whose parents struggled with divorce, I've been worried about divorce for months. Then I got so emotionally unstable, almost bipolar when I go to school, to church, and come home. I was always a different person. There were points when I'd cry my eyes out and tell no one, I did self-harm to myself, and have had so many open opportunities for suicide. I prayed and I prayed, as a Christian, but I became so doubtful because those feelings kept coming to me. The only three people I ever talked to about this were my brother, John, my childhood best friend, Vivienne, and my best friend crush whom you all know to be Asher. He knows the whole burden of having me as a friend, because every single time I feel this way, I always. ALWAYS. Go to him first. And every time he talks me through it and prays for me. And I feel better. Until something else happens throughout the week and it all comes back around again.

Now some of you might be saying, "oh, this is nothing compared to what I've been feeling." Or "suck it up you whimp." And you're all right. I'm such a crybaby. I've admitted it to myself already. That I'm annoying people telling them about my personal problems. Even in my head, I'm always acting tough, acting like a warrior, but how could I do that if I'm always crying?

Then I found my fandoms... Nightwing... Kid Flash... Maximum Ride... Fang... Ladybug... Cat Noir... Naruto... Sasuke... Sakura... Kirito... Asuna... It's hard to imagine that I learn the most from the people who never existed. All these people taught me to never give up. Ever. Not on life, not on anyone. These characters all have their determination and will to fight.

Young Justice : To protect their loved ones.
Maximum Ride : To protect their loved ones.
Miraculous : To protect their loved ones.
Naruto : To protect their loved ones.
Sword Art Online : To protect their loved ones.

The reason I'm living today may actually be this same determination they all have. Actually, might be a mix of what they all want. For example, Nightwing lives to save his city and his friends. Max lives to keep her and her family alive. Ladybug lives to save her city and marry the love her life, same with Cat Noir. Kirito lives to keep Asuna alive, Asuna lives to keep Kirito alive. Then there's the three. Naruto lives to be accepted and to save his best friend. Sasuke lives to seek revenge. Sakura lives to find love and save the love of her life. I am a mix of all these. I want to somehow restore this drab of a city I live in now... I want to live to marry my childhood crush, I want to live to find love, I want to live to keep others living, I want to live to take revenge on those who had done wrong to me in the past, I want to live to be accepted, and I want to live to save others from being overcome by darkness forever.

I noticed... Every single one of these characters have cried. Every one. From the strongest leader, to the most emotional member, to the darkest assassin. You wouldn't be human if you didn't have any emotions. And a true warrior always shows their emotions. They've all cried, so there's nothing wrong with crying about anything at all.

So last month, I found an anime AMV that I decided to watch. I loved the song, I looked it up, and I bought it.

The problem I've been having most recently is with the fact that I feel like I'm failing with everything. School, music, and even spiritually, and my flaws have been consistently building up. But I've been having problems more with inclusion, or being included with others. I know there are some of us out there who are suffering this. This chapter is for you. I've been feeling out of place with friends from church, and it makes me feel like there's no one else out there for me. After another close friend moved away, I thought everything would be okay. Well, I'm still in the awkward shell of separation and removal, feeling like there's no one left... So I found myself in the same pit that I always find myself in. The one that told me to run away, take a gun, and use it. But then when I shuffled one of my playlists, of course that song was the first to come up. And that's when I first really listened to and understood the lyrics.

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(The song I inserted above is the song that I'm referring to.)

King by Lauren Aquilina
You're alone. You're on your own.
So what? Have you gone blind?
Have you forgotten what you have and what is yours?

Glass half empty, glass half full.
Well either way you won't be going thirsty.
Count your blessings not your flaws.

You've got it all. You've lost your mind in the sound.
There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown.
You're in control. Rid of the monsters inside your head.
Put all your faults to bed.
You can be king again.

You don't get what all this is about.
You're too wrapped up in your self-doubt.
You've got that young blood set it free.

You've got it all. You've lost your mind in the sound.
There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown.
You're in control. Rid of the monsters inside your head.
Put all your faults to bed.
You can be king

There's method in my madness.
There's no logic in your sadness.
You don't gain a single thing from misery.
Take it from me.

You've got it all. You've lost your mind in the sound.
There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown.
You're in control. Rid of the monsters inside your head.
Put all your faults to bed.
You can be king again.

So we really have no excuse. There's no logic in our sadness, because we've all got each other. Right here. On Wattpad, in a community in which everyone deserves to be welcomed and loved despite our differences.

FiaTheOtaku Even if we may not agree on some things, we still love the same things as well, and there's no need to fight over one thing if we can agree on so many other things. We can break the wall between differences and things that so many people argue about. 😘

Neko-Sasuke We're all in this together. And you're not alone. Because you've got us. We're your family, and we love you. You're not forgotten. You've got an entire family of fellow writers and fandoms out here that welcome you!

I'm sorry for this long story and explanation. So do what you like with this story, with this information. But please remember this final wish.

Please don't make the same mistake I did. It doesn't matter what others say about you. It doesn't matter how many tear you down. Because of these fandoms that we all know and love... Sword Art Online, Naruto, Miraculous, Maximum Ride, Teen Titans, Young Justice... We can be who we want, and we can stand up for ourselves. We can all be part of their fandoms too. Maybe not as superheroes... But as stronger people. There's at least one character in each fandom that teach an important lesson that can be applied IRL. Most of them being to not take life for granted. We're all still young, I'm sure. Make the most of it, and don't let others tell you otherwise.

You're not alone. Spread this around the world, if you know friends who are in need of courage and love, please reach out to them, because they only have a chance to make that mistake once before it's all over.

If you need someone to talk to, PLEASE PM me. I don't know what I'd do if I lost any of you. If you have your own testimony or story to tell, you can leave it in the comments or privately in a PM. I always respond. So if you need someone to talk to, I'm always here.

If not, then help someone else. If you know of someone who's suffering depression, help them before it's too late.

So regain your courage and strength, because you can be king again.