You might know from the tittle that what will come on this update, well it's about me.

I've been having sad times and sometimes i have been thinking that i might and always be forever alone/ being with nobody/single/idk. And sometimes, when i think of this, i started to cry a little and then sometimes more. And I hold my tears down with the words:

"Don't you dare to cry, little sh*t"
"C'mon, Loser DON'T CRY"
"I am alone, i am alone, always forever alone.."

And much more. And sometimes if it doesn't work, i punch myself a few times to stop it. But, it happens to me quite randomly, not all the time, but some of the time. So, do not worry about it.

I sometimes hears music and watch funny vids, but those sadness that i've bad from the past... Will never get away. It's haunting me. It nested deeply inside of me, in my heart and my soul.

When the first time i broke up, blocked by friends, loosing a friend, getting one of my friends angry or creeped out and much more. I blamed myself to much, but not far like almost kill myself, no. But, it almost to the point that my soul tells me that i will live, forever alone, alone...

So yes, some more things that had happens to me for quite sometime. But i guess you really need to know it. I may not be the best of looks, intelligence, and more. But, i can always try to be the one that cares, loves, and the one that will always protect you. I will do it, for friends and family, even for the one i loved ( if i do got that). So anyway, i hope you all that reading this, do not worry, i will be fine. Have a good day and have a great and fun holidays my friends/ #CaponeArmy22 ^~^