hey guys so its 5am and I have 1 more hour till I have to go to school so I gotta make this quick,so the other day,my mum found out about how I feel about religion and all that and she listens to some of my music she reacted actually pretty okay but she said she didn't really like it but that she understood that it was what I like and that she couldn't stop me from listening to it(when I was a baby I listened to music and when someone tried to change it I would get mad so they never did it because mad Acacia is scary Acacia)because she knew it was my passion and that she now understands what I like to sing and stuff but was glad I listen to some pop songs but not a lot,now my religion,I'm warning you,if you don't like religiousness or get easily scared(there's some scary shit in some religion's)or just plan out hate hearing,listening,or talking about it you might want to leave the chapter before I start talking about it,you have been warned,so I told my mom about how I was confused about whether god was real or not and she said "Sweetie don't be confused god is real,your letting the devil win when you believe he isn't" to which I replied with "Mum no I'm saying that I'm confused and stuck on whether gods real or not I'm not saying I don't believe in him" "Then I'll start taking you to chruch with me" "Mum I don't want people to tell me god is real and church doesn't always help everything" "I just don't want you left behind in the rupture (when god comes back and he takes all Christians to heaven with him and leaves the sinners behind him and they I think get killed? Or get the mark of the beast(devil) on them and they go to hell? I think)" "Mum I'm not I'm saved iv been saved since a little kid" "I know,Journey (my mum likes calling me Journey) I know I'm glad you told me how you feel about this and we'll talk more about it later just don't over think yourself,or let your anxitey get the best of you, its all gonna be okay" "okay" and then she went back to doing whatever she does around the house. I'm so fuckin confused as to what I am guys :_(