For some reason my iPad's keyboard has a tendency to be finicky so grammar will be much worse as it isn't registering me typing a lot rn.

I hate how I'm absolutely shit at comforting people in more detailed ways. I wish I could actually comfort people that isn't fucking repetitive. I want to be able to write paragraphs comforting people, but all my short minded brain can comprehend to write is it's "*hug*". How come I can write thousands of words for a small au I made in 40 minutes but when I want to comfort someone it's the same thing every time.

I wish I could actually do something in situations. I wish I could help instead of being a fucking weight on everyone around me. I wish I couldn't be a pathetic excuse of a friend. I wish I wouldn't have thoughts that make me want to stab myself. I wish I could be slightly normal. I wish I wasn't a fucking crybaby. I wish that my family members will treat me like a human being.

I hate myself. I hate how I'm scared to show my feelings whenever drama happens in a friend circle because then I feel like I'm just being a whiny waste of resources who is only trying to get attention. I wish that people will stop being mad at me. I wish I was someone who deserves a happy life.

I wish I could actually address the shit that is wrong with me instead of burying it deep down and ignoring it for as long as I can. I wish i could stop being a fucking cry baby.

-Quicklight