(Benjamin's pov)

No matter how much I drink, sleep, or try to relax- I always hear their voices. The voices of the ones that have left me die alone in this silent sea. I can't stop seeing their faces... why?Why?! Why must it be them and not me? Why couldn't I go with them.

No matter how hard I try, I'm always the one to end up alone. Why can't I have good things in my life? What must I do to end this suffering?

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I huffed as sipped down my wine. I stare out at the glistening ocean as I replay the melody in my head, over, and over again. I hate it, I hate that melody. It was the melody I heard before my son took his last breath.

I made my way back to the castle, and into my son's room. I take the music box and ignored the hallucinations that stood before me. I could hear faint voices but I ignored them as I brought the box to my room. I set it on the floor and used my trident to destroy the music box until it played it's song no more.

Then I immediately felt guilty when I looked at myself in the mirror. What have I've done? What have I've become? Have I've gone mad?

I just broke my son's favorite possession.. I'm a terrible father. If Neptune were alive... he would cry for hours, possibly days.

I felt to the floor and held onto my head in pain. I screamed at myself for my ignorance and selfishness. I banged my head on the floor until I passed out.

I woke up in the morning, to find that I was still alive to be torturing by sorrow for another day...