Has anyone ever wanted to cut their life earlier out a mere insanity and not being able to take the madness that goes around in their head, but they can't because they'll go to hell for it. I would know what that feelings like :)

The feeling of negativity continuously growing but I keep trying to ignore it by being more positive. Then I tell others to be positive only to warn them and myself the insanity I would trap myself in if I gave into the negativity.

I would know what it's like to try and stay positive for only each waking hour to get closer to what hell has in store for you :)

You probably don't understand what I am saying because it's late and I'm probably speaking pure nonsense