Hey guys! So I am about to tell you how my past week has been, cause I honestly think this has been one of the craziest weeks of my life.

Well start off with last Monday. I found out that my friend, let's call her Lilly, had been cutting and she told me that she had tried to kill herself that morning.

Me: Lilly we have to tell someone. You need help, and that's not a bad thing! Come on we have to talk to a teacher.

Lilly: No. You're not telling anyone. Besides who would they believe, me or you? It's my word against yours.

It took me a day to finally talk to my mom to see what I should do. She told me to talk to my best friend, who also happens to be Lilly's best friend as well. Well call him Logan.

So I text Logan and ask if he has Lilly's parents numbers, and I tell him what she said to me and that she'd been cutting. He tells me no, and immediately gets mad at me for trying to talk to someone. Like SUPER mad.

He even says, "STOP I won't tell you again."

I try to explain to him multiple times that I only want to help Lilly, but he snaps at me that he will talk to me Wednesday morning.

Wednesday morning rolls around, and I was talking to my friend when Logan stomps past us and snaps at me, "Outside now."

I ignore him and keep talking to my friend, but then he walks back through with Lilly following close behind and does the same thing, "Outside now."

I follow him outside this time, and this is how that conversation went.

Logan: Ok we need to talk. You need to stop trying to fix Lilly.

Me: Logan I am not trying to fix her! I'm trying to help her!

Logan: No you are trying to fix her!

Me: I am not trying to fix her! I know the place she's in right now, and I want to help her! There's a difference!

Logan: no it's the same thing! You are stressing her and me out, so you need to cut this bullcrap out! You are being ridiculous!

Me: You know what? Fuck you!

I ran back into the school with Logan shouting at me to come back.

A few days later I decided not to tell a teacher. I told Logan that I wasn't gonna tell anyone, and he never texted me back, so I asked, (over text) "Are you just gonna keep ignoring me?"

No response.

Btw there are four friends in this specific friend group, me, Lilly, Logan, and another guy called Axel. I have had a huge crush on Axel for a while now, so Lilly and Logan told me to ask him to homecoming. I did, and he shrugged and said sure. I was so freaking excited!

But after Logan and I got into the fight I didn't know if Axel still wanted to go to homecoming with me, so I go up to talk to him cause there had automatically been some tension between us after the fight. (Btw this was on Friday)

Me: I assume you know that Logan and I are fighting right now, so I need a simple yes or no. Do you still want to go to homecoming with me?

Axel: ya we need to talk about this. You need to stop.

Me: What are you talking about! I'm trying to help her!

Axel: You're stressing her out. And she hasn't even actually done anything.

Me: No Axel! She's been cutting her wrists! I'm trying to help her because I know the place she's in, cause I've tried to kill myself before!

I was sobbing at this point, and Axel pulls me into a hug and lets me cry on his shoulder for a minute.

Me: I'm sorry. I just really need a friend right now. So do you still want to go to homecoming with me?

Axel: Yes I'll still go with you.

Skip ahead to this Monday, Axel starts making fun of me for being so excited about homecoming, and he's telling his friends and me about how he is going to bail on me the night of homecoming because it's going to be boring. He told me that he doesn't care.

So that evening I texted him and I just lay everything out. That I like him, and that this dance means a lot to me because Im going with him.

He responds with, ya I'll still go with you, but you'll have to remind me cause otherwise ill forget.

So I tell him, ok I don't think we should go together. I am actually excited about this dance and I would rather go with someone who is just as excited to go with me.

Then he starts talking about how his friends might force him to go anyways.

I started talking to my other friend, Frank, that night. (Btw he knows Lilly, Logan, and Axel, but they arent friends or anything)

So some backstory on Frank. I've liked this guy for a while too, but up until about a month ago I thought he hated me, cause he just ghosted me all of the sudden for three months. And we go to different schools, so I literally never see him. Well one night my schools football team was playing his schools football team, and we are both band kids, so we are required to play at the games. He ended up finding me during our break, and screamed across the bleachers, "Anna I dropped my phone in the pool!"

We talked for the next ten minutes, and Axel even came over for a second to talk with us but then he ran off. I gave Frank my number again, and I knew he wasn't lying cause his ENTIRE BAND knew who I was. Literally people I've never met in my life were walking up to me and saying, "You're Anna the sousaphone player, right?"

And anytime one of Frank's friends would walk past, he would start jumping up and down and pointing at me and saying he found me.

Well we end up going to the movies with some of my friends the next day, and he admits to me that he likes me. He says that I give him butterflies and that no girl has ever made him feel this way. I told him that I had butterflies too, but there was someone at my school that I liked, and I didn't want to drag him on a hook, and he said that he understood.

So back to this week. The day that I cancel homecoming with Axel, (btw this next part is on facetime) I ask Frank if he wants to go with me, and his reaction was completely different compared to Axels.

Axel just shrugged and said sure I'll go with you.

But this is how the conversation went with Frank.

Me: (I was shaking like crazy, and he could tell that I was nervous)

Frank: Hey it's just you and me. You don't have to be scared around me.

Me: do you want to go to homecoming with me?

Frank: (his face completely lit up, and he was grinning from ear to ear) Ya I'll go to homecoming with you.

Me: Wait really? (Guys I responded the same way when Axel said he would go with me, because I was genuinely surprised that he said yes)

Frank: ya I'll go with you. What's the date?

Me: (gives date)

Frank: that's the same day as my homecoming.

Me: so whos going with who?

Frank: I'll go with you to your school.

Me: ok great! But I do have one more question. Do you want to coordinate our outfits?

Frank: of course we can do that! I have a whole closet to go through, so we can definitely make something work.

(Btw when I had asked Axel if we could coordinate our outfits, he said sure, but when I double checked with him he said he wouldn't coordinate his outfit with me because I had already bought my dress)

Me: (I ALMOST said freaking THANK YOU! I need some help ok guys dont judge) Ok great! We can work out some of the details once it gets closer, but I'm really excited to see you!

Frank: I'm excited to see you too.

We talked for a little bit longer, and then we hung up. He texted me and asked if I wanted him to go as my friend or as my date.

I kinda spazzed out and sent him four different messages about how I would like for him to go as my date, but he didn't have to if he didn't want to, and he said that he wants to go as my date then told me goodnight.

Tuesday morning I was walking to my next class, and he texts me.

Frank: Question

Me: Answer

Frank: Do you wanna be my girlfriend?

Me: Wait you really want me to be your girlfriend? I just want to make sure you didn't somehow butt dial that whole thing, cause if you really mean it then I would absolutely love to be your girlfriend.

Frank: Yes, I want you to be my girlfriend

Me: ok then I guess you are going to homecoming with your girlfriend

We have been talking almost 24/7, and I'm worried one of the teachers will confiscate my phone, but so far so good! I haven't shown Frank my dress, I just told him that it was maroon and black.

There was a completely different feeling when Frank said he would go to homecoming with me compared to when Axel said he would go with me.

I was excited that I was going with Axel, but I'm genuinely happy that I am going with Frank. Tell me in the comments if that difference makes sense. Anyways that has been my week.

Oh also my birthday was on Sunday!

Ok NOW that's been my week.

That you all for reading/listening, and I will continue to post updates about my hectic highschool life! Bye guys!