Why does everything feel so heavy?
Why do people like me?
I'm such a  broken mess..
My girlfriend probably thinks she needs to fix me.
She doesn't.
I can't do it myself but she shouldn't have to feel like she needs to.
I love her.
It makes her sad to see that I do self harm and have suicide thoughts.
I should stop telling her about my problems.
Either way she would be worried.
She shouldn't worry about me.
There once were two guys.
They were my best friends.
They turned out to be stupid idiots.
They told me they actually hated me.
My mom probably thinks I am a big mistake.
She treats me like shit mostly.
She always asks why I can't be a normal ' girl '
for once.
Didn't she realize yet?
Didn't she realize that i'm non-binary.
Did she actually not realize?
That shows how much she ' knows ' me.
Oh, how nice.
My mom does want to let me stay home the rest of the day tomorrow.
Also tomorrow is the day where we actually wanted to celebrate my birthday. But I guess mine won't be celebrated only my sister one's.