Something I forgot to to tell Clay and floyd. I don't mind this being out. Its not big. Or that private.

So you know how when I was with that family of 6 kids. And the father was mean?

Well, one night....now I didn't know they had a kissing rule here🙄.

I was in the middle of the triplets bed. Two girls on one side of me. The 3rd is a boy and he slept in another room. But she gave a kiss to both of her girls and I've gotten one before and I was confused why she didn't give me one.

So I was like "wait? What about me?"

She done said "do you think you deserve one?" Now she meant behavior wise. But damn.....since when they had a kissing rule?

I said "....yeah" she was like "okay...." She gave me one but I thought it was weird that she asked me if I deserved it.

They were very strict in my opinion. At might point of view its considered abuse to me. Now, it's strict and good grounds foe othera....but I don't work like that.

You gotta take it easy, if you yell I get scared, scream I cower, threaten me......well that'll get me running and crying for my dad. Ik, childish.... But I can't control the way I'm wired.

When I hear a stern voice I process as it as yelling and I'm hurt.

If you raise your voice I cry.

Anyways yeah..... See where this would be considered abuse to me? They were highly strict and I can't handle it. My mom was there so I wasn't that scared. I went to her when I was upset.....she backed me up.

I think I was a bit of a brat....but I had no firends and nothing to do other then talk to myself play fake talk to adults. And my mom didn't raise me well. So I wasn't that nice, and my anger was hell. I feel so bad. Wattpad has witnessed it. I was 12 now, now...I didn't know it was a rule til I turned 13 and I wasn't on here that long for anyone to know.

No one told me. If I knew I wouldn't of been staying on.

Anyways.

Love you~

Adios