I don't know why I'm writing this but here we go.

"She" got mad at me because I told my 7yo sis what pansexual meant.

The only reason she knows is because my friend is pan and we were at my house and she brought it up. Well my sister asked what it meant so I told her.

Well, like the child she is she told our great grandma and "Her"  and I got in trouble.

The worst part(other than everything) is she said this:

"I didn't tell you my high school best friend tried to be a lesbian with me when you were young"

But she did tell me that!!!!

She did and I hate that I couldn't say that!! "Her" and her husband brought up the LGBTQ community plenty of times when I was younger, but it was just for hate!!

And on that same night she got mad at me because I talk to my brother about sander sides. Well she apparently found out Thomas is gay and got so fricking mad and I was ready to die right there.

And I had my 1st panic attack that night but nobody knows because I was by myself and I hated it.

Sorry, it's just-

I hate "Her" but she makes me feel bad when I don't do something, even if I do. But, a few more years and I'll be eighteen and can leave.

Sorry for unloading all of this, I just now remembered that night and felt horrible.

But I'm hoping you guys are doing better💞