I want to feel again

To tell you

But I don't know how

To pass the demons

I don't know how

To make you proud

To make you see me for who I am

I don't know how

To handle it all

I'm surrounded by crashing waves

A cacophony of sound

I want to tell you that I can't do everything

Without cracking

Fracturing into broken remnants

The weight of the world presses on my shoulders

And I can't handle it all

I try to be resilient

But too much is

Too much

I don't know how to tear down the walls

I have built around me

And to let others in

I only know what I have

To some it isn't enough

I am proud of what I've become

But I don't know how to make the tables turn

In my favor

I don't know how to make the world spin

To suit me

I don't know how to step out

To show myself for who I am

I want to

But I don't know how