A/N: Angst ahead

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John's eyes were like stars. They were always lit, they had a nice sparkle to them, and they were bright. The light almost never flickered, except for maybe once or twice, but every time, the light would come back. 

And Alexander loved staring into. When they were sitting on the couch, cuddling, he would stare at John's eyes, even if the boy wasn't looking at him. When they were making love, or even just a quickie, Alexander stared into John's eyes. They were just s bright. They were like an aesthetic photo, so pretty that you just can't look away. 

Alexander also admired how the light almost never went out, even during his hardest of times. Alexander would have to admit, his own eyes were very dull. No shine, sparkle, etc. He was so used to a type of sadness, his eyes just never sparked. Alexander was a very negative person, but John had been slowly helping him become more positive. 

But there was one day when the light shut down... permanently. 

Alexander found himself in a hospital waiting room, crying on his friend's shoulder as he waited for permission to see John. As he'd been told, John had been shot while out at the store. And Alexander felt terrible, he knew he should've come with John. 

So when the time came to see John, Alexander ignored everyone and everything, running to his boyfriend's room. Upon arriving, he noticed John was awake. "Jacky!" Alexander choked out, collapsed onto a chair by John's side. "L-lexi..."

"Lemon, I love you." John breathed, smiling weakly. Alexander grabbed a hold of his hand and kissed it repeatedly. "I l-love you too, Peaches. And I'm so, so sorry for not going with you!" John chuckled a bit. "It's okay, Alex..." his eyes had opened a bit wider than before, and Alexander noticed the light still in his eyes. 

"Alexander..."

"John?"

"My love... take your time." John whispered, smiling weakly again, and Alexander felt John's arm go limp. He looked up from staring at the floor and felt another rush of tears. "No, no, no John you can't leave yet!" he cried out, tightly gripping John's hand. He looked into his eyes, and saw no light. 

It was just dark. His eyes were still brown, but there was no sparkle, light, dazzle, no anything. Alexander tuned out everything around him, even the doctor's trying to get him away. 

As Alexander had walked outside, he was hugging himself tightly. Every memory with John filled his mind and his eyes felt watery again. 

I'll see you on the other side, and hey. I can't wait to see that sparkle in your eyes!

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A/N: idrk tbh

edit: I numbered it wrong and it won't let me change it??????? so it says 39th and its supposed to say 38th

edit again: so ignore that ^