I hear you there

Inside my head.

Screaming things

I could have said.

I know you think

I've got it wrong.

I've heard you scream

That I'm not strong.

I've heard you laugh

When I fall down.

You hunt my weakness

Like a hound.

You're my guilt, my dread,

My pain.

You're my sadness,

Self-disdain.

You're the pain

That I inflict.

You're the part

That I constrict.

You're the part

That I still need,

That part of me

That will not bleed.

The part of me

That's a steel wall,

The knight in armor

When I call.

The part of me that cannot smile,

The part of me who avoids all.

The part of me my friends don't see,

The part of me who loves a brawl.

The part of me when I'm afraid,

The part of me when I'm alone.

The part of me that won't forgive

Any mistakes of my own.

I lock away

This part of me.

I hide it so

My friends won't see.

But when I'm lost

Or I'm alone,

I climb back on

That icy throne.

I don't speak

And I don't smile,

I walk through

The empty aisle.

I tense up

When you get close,

Conflicts that

I never chose.

Sometimes I

need to be cold,

To be blunt

And to be bold.

Sometimes I

Don't want to deal

With how I

Might make you feel.

So sometimes

I need this side,

The part where all

My ice resides.

I need this side

To stay unhurt

When I fall

And hit the dirt.

This is where

Bad feelings go

About me,

No one can know.

You're the part

That that will stay by

'Cause without you

I might just die.

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A/N: Kinda ended on a morbid note there 'OuO