A huge a breath escaped outside your mouth as you walk.

It was already midnight yet you still have the guts to walk alone in the dark corners of the streets.

As the cold breeze of wind passes your skin while walking, a familiar shadow of a building is being formed.

Fingers trembling in huge doubt as you get near to it, you continued walking.

Walking, walking, and walking...

You've stumbled upon a familiar old oak door with creaky wooden floor. You tried to silently walk on it but failed miserably as you reach for the doorknob.

Before you opened the door you gave off a huge breath.

You opened the door and adjusted your eyes in the dark.

You scanned the whole place looking for a familiar figure you're yearning to hold.

You sat on an old dusty stool and waited patiently for him hoping that he was just a little late.

Time went fast. Your eyes couldn't take any much longer making you fall in to a deep slumber.

You woke up with a black coat on your back. You pulled the coat in front of you and saw a parchment inside its pocket.

It was a letter. You knew it at first glance that it was his writing at the very first glance. Curious, you opened and read it.

To you, whom I hold dearest.

Each moment that I'm with you makes me wish that the time will stop so I can cherish you more and love you more.

You are my cure and at the same time my weakness. You are the only woman whom I wanted to hold dearly. You are the only one who gave me this strange yet satisfying kind of happiness.

I want to say thank you for all the memories that I'll keep on reminiscing. All the laughter, tears, and pain. It will be forever carved in my heart. You, you will always be in my heart.

Thank you for loving me. Goodbye.

Overflowing emotions filled you up. You hugged the piece of paper and cried your whole heart out.

Why does he keep on chasing his past?
You wanted to say this in front of his face but you know he'll despise you if you happen to utter any word of that sentence.

Happiness

He already experienced it to you yet he still clings in his painful past.

Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy?

You wiped your tears in anger.

You knew you'll never understand him. He was too complex to comprehend. He experiences happiness yet he chooses to be a masochist. You were angry because you loved his complexity. You were attracted to his oddity. The things that charmed you has never occurred to you will be the reason of ending everything.

You took a deep breath and closed your eyes.

You thought hard, hard enough to think of something that will let you cling on him. Even if it may seem a delusion.

"Maybe... " You thought. "if Kurapika manages to come back alive after everything that is about to happen, maybe he'll come back to me."