RagSan OS- Love You Jiju

It's been a long time; the family lost its glory and enjoyment. The incident, well it is not an incident, actually an accident made a great disaster to the Maheswari family as well as Gadodia family. In both of the family, lives were taken away by the god who given and taken it before they claim up. Everything has to move on, so the accident didn't made their life stop of everyone, but stuck with that memory for some people in those families.

Sanskar Maheswari, the Famous Singer come Rockstar was the one who made himself stuck with that incident, as he had lost his wife, Swara. Sanskar in his whole lifetime deprived himself for the reason losing his closed one because of him. When he was 8, his parents died in the accident and he was left all alone in the small age. His mother Sujatha is the one who take care of him and his sister, Uttara.

In his life, if he'd something important as well as precious it is his Sujatha Maa and his sister. He tried to earn to provide them better at the cost of himself having worst. He always kept himself away from everything, far as possible as he believed that whoever he likes they will suffer at the end. He may not have superstitious belief but still had his mind committed to the phrases "Far away from everyone".

Other than family, is he liked anything? Then, that is his music. His music is something he likes more, and will do more. He had burning desire to be the rockstar. When he achieved it step by step, the world made put him on its top, and he enjoyed the fame and endorsement he gained from it. When Sujatha persist him over the marriage, he objected every time.
He hates responsibility and getting attached to someone. Mostly, Womens!!

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But after seeing Swara, the supermodel, he obliged Sujatha in her matter over the fact but at one condition of marrying the girl of his choice. Not just because of the sexy and luscious girl Sanskar liked Swara and want to marry her. But for the fact, she is like him, who won't care if he love her or not, she will stay with him. And continue to live with him as she liked her carrier.

Just like him, her desires matched his. Passion of Music for him and Modelling for her.

In spite of all her desire to be supermodel, she is good girl, and never a gold digger, she born into family of middle class "Gadodia". His father died like his father on her childhood, her mother was left to take care of Swara and her sister. Sumi had did fair job in bring her up daughter's and nurture them with good qualities and manner. When Swara stepped at the model field, she disliked her interest over it, but reluctantly agreed. Every mother dislikes the carrier which could get your daughter bad name, that's why she despised that Carrier.

She wants her daughter to get married, when Sanskar asked her whether she could marry him. Swara told her family problems and said that she will, only if he permits her modeling even after marriage. He agreed quickly as this is what he wants after all. A marriage without any rules and condition thus he got.

As their parents are wishing for them to get married, they didn't been impediment for the marriage. But still worried over the partners they had selected.

What they wanted them to understand is A Marriage is not a Agreement.

Marriage and other function happened fully by ritually. They got married and Swara moved to his house. Sujatha even though she didn't liked Swara, still she didn't hate her. Swara and Sanskar lead their separately like they planned. After finishing their breakfast they leave to their jobs, and came for the night.

All gone well, until Swara got pregnant. Sanskar, Sujatha, and Uttara were happy about her pregnancy as well as Swara. She discontinued her profession, and accustomed to be married girl not a perfect mother. She ate everything that is good for her, when it is her sixth month, she took Sujatha and Sanskar permission and left to her place, and gave birth to girl, "Adithi" which Sanskar named.

After Adithi birth, once she got well she continued her carrier placing Adithi on her mother's place with her sister, or with Sujatha handling her granddaughter. Sanskar, Adithi and Swara toured so many places, and made so many memories with them. That's what Child is! A Bondage to relation.

Swara and her family excluding her sister and her Adithi, they all left for the marriage of Puneet, Swara's cousin. Adithi was left behind with Swara sister, as both are not doing well. Sanskar had left to the international concert, and he will join them in their reception after marriage. On their way to the marriage, their car met with the accident. All the members in the car, died before they were taken to the hospital.

Sanskar cursed himself, for Swara's death. He knew he wasn't the reason but still he loathe himself for the accident. Once again, he lost the members he loved. This time he was clear, that he won't love anyone not even move to the boundaries of that. Though he didn't loved Swara, he had affections and sincere care over her.

Now he had her daughter with him, he has to guard her. He knew that was not going to be difficult. But what he failed acknowledge was, that was going to be difficult.

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The preparation for the marriage is going outstandingly quick and fast. On the contrary, it is making her do nothing but nervous about the quick look of the uncertain marriage she has.

She always been the exclusion the fair life, this time also happened same. She wished that she will marry someone who she will love after her marriage. But now is it possible? Although she can't denial this marriage, she had her long going reason behind that. She has to do this at least for her sister's daughter and for the man who lost her wife.

The man, yeah, he is the one entered her life unwillingly by himself, but left to be remain whole life in her. After finishing her schooling, she left to Pune to finish her graduations. There she lived her life peacefully and lonely except some of the friends she created. Even though, she didn't feel lonely, she never felt like she missed her family.

She didn't surprise when her college offered her scholarship for the master, but she was surprised when she got to knew that it is America. She willed to continue, but hesitated to continue in America. Anyways, it is new place, new country so many reasons. She consulted her mother over the matter, she agreed readily. She left the town and continued her degrees.

It's her last year degree exam's time, she received call from her mother who is delighted and informed Swara's marriage with the rockstar, she likes. She asked her whether she could join the marriage, she wished she would join and meet the Rockstar but she was forced to be stayed on the America because of her busy scheduled Exams.

When she was returned back to India, her sister had already give birth to Adithi. Adithi was sweet and lively child yet kind and obedient rather than her sister who is adamant and self-obsessed. Puneet, her cousin marriage date approached, Adithi was fallen ill as well Ragini. As Sumi tried to excuse herself to take care Ragini and her granddaughter, her brother was much stand firm against the situation, and asked others to attend marriage, saying Ragini wasn't child needed to be cared. She could take care Child with her.

On the days away from the family, Adithi had grown affectionate towards Ragini and even not noticed the fact of her parents being not with her. While returning back, their car had bump into the accident, unfortunately everyone died on the crucial outcome of the fate.

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Ungrudgingly, Ragini and Sanskar accepted the marriage between each others; even they both need not a partner in their life, but Adithi. For the sake of happiness of Adithi, they reluctantly agreed. But what they failed to notice is how this table turns against them?

The marriage was conducted with the presence of some of the close relatives. They had kept the information away voyeurism eyes of the media and social network. Sujatha had known the mentality of the others of compelled marriage, though she prepared the decorations of the marriage bed, room and others needed to be done.

Ragini was given into the hands of Sanskar, the marriage vows were taken by each uncooperative, it's the time to take Ragini bedroom. The bride maids walked with Ragini as usual teasing, but all the time they teased, she felt as if being stabbed. She had liked the Rockstar once, may had crush on him. After he had become her jiju, she had no more felt the feeling of flutter whilst listening to his music.

She had not seen him, when he was her sister's husband. It made her feel better, because whenever she taught of him and sister relation and now with her it embarrass her to the death.

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The marriage night had been a risky day she could think of, and consequence. She nervously seated herself on the bed, and waited for him to arrive. When he was arrived, the musky rose fragrant cologne is too much for to smell, she started curling her dupatta with her hands.

He stood before the mirror, and removed his overcoat.

"Are you comfortable with this? Or you want to change?"

She blinked her eyes and he gestured the way to closet.

She came back with her pale pink salwar, kameez, white shawl with it.

"Which side you want?" he asked returning with his night suite.

"I am okay with any side"

He settled himself on the right side and she settled on the left side. He switched off the side lamp and closed him eyes.

"No. It was going to be much difficult. He is acting as if I was Stranger." She thought and left whatever going to be in fate hands.

The alarm rang over 6'O clock, she opened her eyes drowsily rubbing her eyes and stopping the alarm. In her college, or in anytime she had always been the one to wake up everyone and preparing food. She loved to make foods and all time she liked homemade foods only.

Quickly moving to the shower, she let the water wash away her thoughts and sleepiness. She wondered why they had made a room as bathroom, it was sufficient for more than ten members to bath at a time. And the rack, it was more than her closet full of cloths comparing to this creams and shampoo stuff.

Asking the servant, way to kitchen she moved downstairs. There, she found Sujatha and a boy in the kitchen making up something.

"Maa"

Sujatha turned to the side sound arrived, and found Ragini dressed in Dark green salwar, kameez and her mangalsutra hanging down. On seeing, her forehead filled with kumkum, a smile formed on her lips. She never seen Swara had worn mangalsutra other than festival times, and kumkum she less worn that. Ragini being so in America, she least expect her to wear Maang and visiting kitchen earlier.

She bend down got bless from the old woman who was just age like her mother, and asking what would all drink for morning. She clearly listened whilst Sujatha explained what was everyone likes and they drink, especially Sanskar and Adithi she more got to know. Sujatha showed Ragini Sanskar's and Adithi's favourite cinnamon coffee they prefer and asked her to prepare hereafter instead of her, because she was getting old and found hard to prepare these days.

Once she heard everyone likes and prepared, she took the trolley and asked the Robin, the servant boy to do other jobs saying that she will do these and cooking.

She had given all their coffee or other things, and woken up Adithi, made sure bathed and given coffee. And got reward kiss for her excellent coffee as Sujatha making, after making visit to all, she moved to his room, and found the place where he slept empty and thought that he is showering. And started settling up the bed, and moved to set up her rack.

"Maa" She heard him shouting and rushed to the room.

"Kya hogayi Sanskar? Why are you shouting?" She asked.

Ragini had felt that he didn't liked coffee so he was screaming, because all this time he had coffee mug in his hand. Suddenly started worrying, that she made him upset.

"What was need you to make coffee. When I had said that you should do work, it wasn't good to you" he had forbidden her to do work not even his coffee, and Ramu Kaka would not do his coffee perfectly, always change the ingredient slightly or fully, so he ordered him to prepare like he do to everyone.

"Who said I did this? I didn't do this" Sujatha said crossing her arms. Adithi also came there to see what the bustling her daddy is making up.

"Then who made this?" he raise up his eye brows.

"Ragini did this" Sujatha informed him. His eyes moved to the woman who he not noticed. Nodding his head, he moved to change making no talks.

Well. He didn't thought his one day old wife would make Coffee for him like a dutiful wife.

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Ragini had started growing fonder towards everyone in the home, their likes and dislikes all were finger tips to her. Walking up early, coffee making, breakfast, lunch and dinner making, getting Adithi ready to school, feeding her, dropping her, picking her, tutoring her and niece, playing with her and children, medicine giving to everyone and so on. Her life was full busy to notice she was being monitored.

The only she distanced with was him; they had least talked if she have mention peculiarly they had not even good with each other not in words. She repeatedly kept his coffee before he wake up, whenever he was rummaging through the things to find his watch or up to something, she will give him, or sometimes she will get his things and gather it on his closet for him.

Today he had no other meetings, so he was earlier on lunch time. He was making his way to our room when Sujatha asked me to call him.

"Suniye"

He paused and turned his head.

"Maa. Called you for food"

He lest came for home to food, Since he came what was wrong accompany having food with everyone.

She didn't stand much time and returned to serve. Fortunately, today she had prepared his favorite food aloo paratha, kandha poha, mutton sukke, vindaloo.

She brought bowl full of his favourite items loaded, and served him. He didn't stop her while serving. He picked up small piece and ate.

"Maa. Server me. I am waiting for foods. Leave dad, he has his Mommy to serve." Adithi pulled Ragini to her side making Ragini blush at her Daughter.

"Oh. My dear Puttar. Your Grandmaa is Getting old na. Let your father have food from his wife hand." Sujatha played her cards.

Sanskar sat on their simply, as if he didn't hear those conversation. She watched his face changing from normality to excitement. And he asked to serve all, she readily served.

"Who had cooked these all? Any special. And even Ramu Kaka left to see his family. Nowadays foods are in good taste. So who is that?"

Adithi smiled seeing her father relishing her mother's food and replied.

"It's Mumma, Pappa"

"And Papa. Mumma only cooks morning, evening and night. So you don't know that."

"Don't you know?" Adithi pried, cocking her brows. Sanskar smiled at his daughter who is questioning him innocently.

He watched her standing aloof, and gazing downwardly, and tried to cheer up the commotion he created, "Good" and he left.

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Adithi asked Sanskar to take up somewhere since it was too long they had gone. After Swara death, Sanskar had stopped his family travelling unnecessarily.

"Okay. Tell mumma to get ready. We will be going out today" He said smilingly at her daughter before swirling and making her laugh.

"Mumma" Adithi shrieked.

Ragini came running towards her baby. "Hey kya hogayi app ko?(What happened to you?) Why are you calling me Adithi?" She demanded seeing her excited.

"Oh. Hum da ke saath ka bahar ja rahe(We are going out with daddy)"

"Hum? (WE?"

She questioned back, she was perplexed to understand Adithi said. In this 3 months of marriage life they had never gone out, she didn't asked or he didn't wanted. Even Sujatha seem to understand they need time so she simply stayed out. Today all of a sudden they were going out is intriguing.

She got herself readied in black with creamy velvet hand worked sari, the creamy color lace and filigreed golden stones added much beauty to her. She let her hairs free and making it fell to her shoulders. She done minimal makeup and got ready with Adithi on time.

They were going to Essel world, Adithi's choice of theme park. On their way to driving, they both talked only to Adithi, and with them when it is needed. She took Adithi with her, and he went to park the car.

He came after parking and bought tickets addressing Ragini as his wife to the receptionist, when she asked who she is. He gave his autograph and they left to the place. Adithi was in cloud nine when her father allowed her to do everything, in some drive they all rode.

In Shot n drop, Ragini coaxed her arms with Sanskar, and pressed her face against his chest.

"Maa. Don't fear. Look even me don't get Sacred for this." Adithi said proudly laughing at her mother who was squirting under the effect of Shot n Drop.

"Yes. My Princess is Brave girl." Sanskar tells proudly, gazing his wife who was still holding his arms like her life depended on it.

"Chup tum dono. People would only know Pain when it comes to them." She tells annoyed, glaring them.

Seeing her fear, both Sanskar and Adithi started teasing her. Ragini asked them not to tell to anyone, and they both tease or blackmail whenever it was necessary.

They had finished their dinner restaurant of Ragini choice, and back to home cheerfully. Sujatha smiled at seeing them growing bonder.

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It was holi festival, Adithi asked her mother to clad in white sari as well her father in white sherwani. They had never objected her wishes, this time too never fails. Annapurna, Sujatha, and Parineeta (Adharsh's wife), mixed up the baang in their juices and made them drink.

Sujatha asked Sanskar to dance with Ragini, and he agreed.

They danced for the "Aaj phir".

On night, Ragini made Adithi sleep telling stories, and she came back to her room to found Sanskar is playing guitar, she heard him playing for sometimes. And he asked whether they would dance, she agreed.

Sanskar is inebriated state as well Ragini, they stumbled and fell on the bed. They looked into each other, Sanskar tilted Ragini face and brushed off the hair. He kissed her deeply, Ragini was shocked to react initially, later she too reciprocate.

Ragini had never kissed a man before in her life. When he pushed his tongue deeper inside her mouth, she tried to follow his style.

"You never kissed man" He asked when he broke the kiss, he felt happy that she was his First Kissing Man. She nodded her head shyly at his question.

"So you are virgin." His next question made her throat drying, forming a lump. A millions of erotic images in her mind. His smirkful smile making her mind go wild.

He asked in confused, that didn't meant that he thought that she was not virgin, because she was in America he thought she might have. It's his feeling. He know what Music field, and Foreign life style has. It's not like every girl would like that. But, it was he had heard.

That night they made love to each other. The feeling of her first is splendid, a happiness creeping inside him.

🎶🎶Surkh wala, sauz wala, Faiz wala love

The love like a ruby, The love like a burning sensation,

The love like purity

Hota hai jo love se jyada waise wala love

The love which happens more than a normal kind

Ishq wala loveDeepest sort of Love
Hua jo dard bhi toh humko aaj kuch zyada hua

I had a pain which was more than ever before

Ishq wala loveDeepest sort of Love

Ye kya hua hai kya khabar yehi pata hai zyada hua🎶🎶

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She opened her eyes adjusting to light, and found herself in his hand. Night memories came visible to her. A happy tear left her eyes, as the memories hit her.

She tried to get up but his hold was too firm. She freshened up herself and prepared coffee for him.

"Ragini" he called out her.

She thought that he got to know what happened, so he was upset with her, and calling her to scold. But it was not her fault, she loved him. They made love together.

"Wait. What I thought? I love him. Do I?"

"Hmm." She said and stood before him.

"Please get me lemon juice and my coffee. It is paining. What happened yesterday?" he queried her, holding his head.

"So. He didn't remember yesterday. Why all this happening to me?"

Days had passed by usual, Sanskar become closer to her, he shared some time his concert info, sometime about his meeting, and sometimes his likes. One day, Ragini was feeling tired, and much fatigue out of all in early morning.

When she was giving to coffee to him, she fell on the bed unconsciously, holding her head which was spinning these days.

"Ragini." Sanskar shook her head worried about her unconscious.

That was she heard before her eyes closed.

When she opened her eyes, she saw him opening her eyes, his face is looking tensed, at the time upset.

"She is wake up." The doctor announced to him, analysing her test as she took some test since she is married.

"Congrats. You are pregnant" Doctor informed her.

"So he might have remembered that night. So he was angry." Ragini thought.

"Mumma. You are going to give me baby toy" Adithi exclaimed after knowing her mother is pregnant, she quickly hugged her father.

"Dad. Mom gonna get us A Child for us." She squealed happily her smile widening.

Sanskar stood shock, unable to believe his Ears what he heard.

He didn't utter a word still now. Others came congratulating me.

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It was 4 months since Ragini had been pregnant. Sanskar had became her care taker, and always made sure she ate, sometime he will make her eat, if she refuses than he would feed her himself. Adithi and Sanskar had been there her medicine giving, and reminding her to eat healthy and forbid to do works.

One day, Sanskar had not arrived. Sanskar had never late to home after Ragini pregnancy, he would always accompany her in her dinner, sometime cuddle her in nights, and tell story to sleep.

She was getting tensed to see him not arrive, later she got a phone call from Adharsh, Sanskar's best friend and manager informing that Sanskar met up in accident. She was too much broken hear that, she lost her family in one accident and toady she won't lose him in accident.

She needed him, he could see their baby, and she didn't even proposed him. How could she tell him that she loves him, when he was not there?

He needed him in every path she take, first on her delivery. Next on their child naming. Later on Adithi studies and every thing. On first, she needed him to know that she loves him deeply, truly, madly.

🎶🎶Ishq wala love

Deepest sort of Love

Jo khone ka tha dar tujhe pata nahi kyu zyada huaThe feeling of loosing You happened today more than ever before

Ishq wala love

Deepest sort of Love
Hua jo dard bhi toh humko aaj kuch zyada hua
I had a pain which was more than ever before

Ishq wala love
Deepest sort of Love
Ye kya hua hai kya khabar yehi pata hai zyada huaI
don't know what happened

I just know that it is more than ever before
Ishq wala love
Deepest sort of Love
Agar ye usko bhi hua hai phir bhi mujhko zyada hua
Even if it happened to him, still I know I have it more than ever before

Ishq wala love
Deepest sort of Love
Surkh wala,
sauz wala,

Faiz wala love
The love like a ruby,
The love like a burning sensation,

The love like purity
Hota hai jo love se jyada waise wala love

The love which happens more than a normal kind
Ishq wala love
Deepest sort of Love🎶🎶

She dropped to her knees, and started crying her heart, not even realized that someone entered her room.

Sanskar knelt beside her, "What happened?"

She was much happy to see him back, but she thought it was hallucinating, she was remembering him like everyday she do in her bathroom, and her closet.

"I know you would be with me for some time. And go away after I came close to you or I touch you" she cried by saying this.

" How would I tell that I love you? I love you so much. You were the one I loved for the first time and will be love you always." She said and he still holding her to say at least now.

"Ragini." He yell at her, and shaken her arms. And pinched her to show her that all is real, worried about her crying state.

"You're here. Truly. Don't tell me. I am dreaming." She asked in disbelief, her eyes still leaving tears.

"Yes. I'm here." He nodded, taking her hands in his hold.

"In this accident, at last I got to know that you love me. Other than god knows when you will tell that. When you had made coffee for me first I was impressed by you how you were doing for me. And seeing growing fonder with all made me like you much more, and when you were there for much things searching, I started wanting your presence everywhere I go. I stared depending upon you even not knowing that. In essel worlds, when you held me, it was something I had never felt for any girl not even for Swara.. I never wanted to love you, because I lost my loved ones, and loving you made me only wanting you more. When I got to know that you were pregnant and that night I was regret and happy at the time, it was out of my controlled love and affection. I love you so much. Don't cry before it make feel more than anything. It make feel that I was dying." He confessed hugging her suddenly, his chest crushing her.

"Suniye"

"I thought you won't talk. But you're talking much " she said smilingly through tears as he pressed his forehead against her.

"So." He probes, kissing her cheeks. She blushes hard, knowing what his gaze was telling already.

He picked her in bridal style, while she smiled at his husband.

She encircled her arms around his neck, "Love you JiJu." She teased him, while he glares at her.

The end,
Thanks for reading,

NasreenAyesha.