Dean's POV:

Alright I'll admit to myself when it comes down to Kiara I might not be the tough guy which I'm usually during my work. And with her I definitely lose control again and again which never used to happen. Right now I'm losing control again and it's not just because of her, but our babies too.

It's too damn early, six weeks too early. They'll be too light, might not be able to breathe yet properly and totally fragile. They might need an incubator, Hayley and I had to go into one after birth. What if their hearts are weak? No the doc said their hearts were fine. But I mean two days ago, he also said everything was ok.

So if he didn't see the birth coming, he might have not seen something else either? What if the pain gets too much for Kiara? She's been through so much pain already. I can't bear to see her in pain again. And it's going to be my fault again, yep this pain is definitely my fault. I fucked her, I got her pregnant, so this is my god damn fault.

"Are you ok, Honey?", what a stupid question Dean, she's squeezing the life out of your hand due to labour pains.

"Dean, can you fucking stop asking me this, every two minutes?", she yells over the pain. "Jeez I'm in labour not dying!

"Scream at me, I don't mind. Let it out Kar, it relieves the pain", that's what they told me anyway, but maybe it was a lie. With my free hand I gently stroke her forehead with a damp cloth, taking the sweat beads away and cooling her a little. Do I need to cool her? It's only just turned February. What if she gets too cold and doesn't tell me? But the midwife told me to do just that.

"The only reason I'm screaming at you, is because you're wrecking my nerves right now. So calm the fuck down."

Kiara's been in labour for 18 hours now and we're no where near close to the end according to the midwife and the doc. How can a woman even endure this? How can they even have more than one child if they've been through this once already? I swear women are crazy.

The moment Kiara's water broke yesterday afternoon, I was out of my mind. This is the reason I wanted her to have her phone on her 24/7. The last four weeks I even wanted to stay at home and work from home, but Kiara insisted I was being foolish and should go to work. Damn was she furious, I wouldn't let her work at the company building.

For a moment I did consider it, thinking about having her table set up in my office so I could keep an eye on her personally. Then I realized at home she could lie down in between. A bed in the office would have been the other option or a sleeping couch. She has no idea, I put up security cameras, just to make sure she's alright. If she ever finds out, I'm dead that's for sure. But the cameras aren't everywhere and there's no sound to it, so I decided to call her in between. My timer was set on every half an hour. Better safe than sorry, right?

Maybe, but just maybe, I did go a little over the top. But who could blame me after all we went through? Tyler definitely called me crazy when he put up all the security system including the cameras. The only place I didn't want any, was in the bedroom and bathroom. I mean I trust Tyler, but he has access to my security system and I sure don't want him to see her naked.

Then again, we've had sex in about every single room of that house, if he did check it he would have seen her anyway. I'll kill him if he checks in on any of that.

God I'm so glad I was there, when her water broke yesterday. What would have happend if she had been on her own? Her phone was on the upper floor in our small library.

"Dean", fingers snap in front of my eyes and I hear Kiara's annoyed voice.

"Sorry what?", in my worries I totally snapped out of it.

"They are taking another ultrasound, you need to move a bit."

"Why?"

"Because you're in the fucking way", Kiara snaps.

"No why another ultrasound?", suddenly I see a concerned look on the doctors face and some blood leaking between Kiara's legs. What the fuck?

"There's a bit of blood that shouldn't be there and the heart rate of one baby is dropping. I need to check if the placenta is in the way. We did see on earlier scans it was a little too low, meaning the risk is higher. Now I need to check if it's the placenta causing...", before he can even finish the sentence a whole load of blood suddenly appears during a contraction. And Kiara screams like I've never heard her before.

The voices around me get rushed, the room is suddenly full of nurses the doctor is yelling things the same as the midwife. "We're taking her straight to the OR, you can wait in front of it", he yells in my direction before leaving the room with her in a bed. He doesn't give me any further information.

"What the hell just happend? What's going on?", I question one of the nurses left with me in the room, while being in utterly shock.

"They're getting the babies now. They had to take her to the OR to save all three lives."

Save their lives? I'm not grasping a single word she's just telling me. Just ten minutes ago, Kiara was yelling at me and now she's on the way into the OR? "W- W- What do you mean with sa- save their lives?" I stuttert.

"Her placenta seems to have been more in the way than we could see on the scans. It's probably been torn off. At least one of the two. Which means, one of the babies isn't getting what it needs right now and at the same time Kiara is losing a lot of blood. The doctors will be doing anything to help them but only an immediate ceasarean section can help them right now. You should go there right now. This is going to go fast now. Good thing we just put the epa a couple of minutes ago, this way they don't need to wait."

I rush in the direction the nurse advises me to. The waiting seems to take ages even if only minutes have passed. I can't believe this is happening right now, one minute I was worried they're coming too early and now their lives are at risk and even Kiara's. The pain and the worry in my chest are weighing me down again and I feel like I'm hardly able to breathe.

About twenty minutes after arriving here, a young female doctor comes out, looking down at me, while I'm crouched down against the wall. "Mr Arlington?"

"Yes. How is my fiancé and how are my babies?", I ask in a stressed and hushed manner.

"The doctors are still taking care of your fiancé, she's going to be ok though. Do you want to come and meet your babies?"

"Oh my god, yes, yes please", my heart is slamming so hard in my chest right now.

She takes me through some doors and then I'm finally in a room where nurses are taking care of two babies. "Are they ok?", I ask worried about the possible answer while I walk closer.

"They've both been examined and yes they are both ok. The oxygen values on your son were a little low for a short while, but they've already recovered. And both seem to be perfectly healthy normal babies. Only a bit tinier and still very light. But that's normal for being premature. Luckily both of them are breathing normal too. Would you like to hold them?"

I nod my head frantically. "Yes", is all I'm able to say.

She shows me a nursing chair in the corner of the room. "For babies direct skin contact is very important even more so with premature babies. It would be best you take your shirt off."

For a moment I stare at her in disbelief, is she trying to check me out? But she seems dead serious, so I do it anway vaguely remembering something I read. I read a lot of these pregnancy and birth magazines, we had a midwife come home doing a coaching with us, as Kiara couldn't do a normal course. But the moment her water broke, everything was blown away.

Once I'm seated in the chair leaning backwards, the nurses hand me my babies only wrapped in tiny nappies. Which look huge against my two tiny babies though. She shows me how to hold them both leaning against my bare chest and then she wraps a blanket around us only leaving their tiny faces to look out.

Oh my god, these two are my babies, mine and Kiara's. Looking down at them tears run down my face. For a moment I was so worried to lose them all and now they're here in my arms. Kiara will want to kill me, for having them in the arms before her.

I feel a little guilty being able to have this special moment without her, it's a moment I want to share with her. She's the love of my life, who has given me this incredible gift and all I want right now, is to be with her. For us to be together as family.

Feeling my babies lying on my chest in this moment, is one of the most incredible feelings I've ever felt. Before their birth, I knew I loved them and wanted them so much, but I was also afraid of sharing the feelings up between the three of them. Now I know how wrong that idea was. I'm not sharing anything, the feelings have just been added on, my heart is slamming so hard in my chest from all the love flowing through me in this moment.

"When can I see my fiancé?", I ask without looking up from either of our babies. It's killing me not knowing if she's really fine.

"She should be pushed over here very soon, she's just one door further. They stopped the bleeding and they were stitching her up when I called you in."

Only a couple of minutes later, they push her in. She had an epa instead of anasthetic so she's awake but I can see how exhausted she is. Doesn't keep her from giving me a heart-warming smile as soon as she sees us three. God, I love her so incredible much. I shoot her the biggest smile I am able to bring up, back.

Pressing our babies gently against my chest I stand up and head towards Kiara. "Phoebe and Leo meet your mummy", I say softly giving each of them another gentle kiss. We had thought of Hayley for a girl first, but I don't want my baby girl to replace my own twin. Or feel the loss every time I call her name, so we went with other names. Hayley is going to be with me forever, deep down in my heart.

The nurse helps me lay them one by one carefully on Kiara's bare chest. At least now I know it really wasn't an excuse, although I do think those nurses enjoyed their view a little too much. I heard one of them whispering something about me being the sexiest man in the UK. Yes ladies, but I'm here because I've just become a daddy due to my incredible fiancé.

"I love you Kar", I whisper and whipe the tears away which are streaming down her beautiful face. My heart swells even more seeing her like this with our two tiny babies. She looks totally exhausted and I help her hold the babies, but she looks so full of love and happy at the same time.

Suddenly her face drops a little and concern is written all over it. "Are they.....are they ok? Are they healthy? Oh my god, what kind of mother am I not even asking that first?"

"Honey calm down. Both of them are healthy, they're breathing fine. They're simply a little tiny, but they are totally ok. And you've just come from a surgery. By the way, you scared the living shit out of me, don't ever do that again to me, you hear me. I need you more than anything else in this world. And these two, need you too."

"It's important to try the first breast feed as soon as possible", the midwife interfers and helps Kiara sit up a little without causing her too much pain, by using the button on her bed to rise the backpart. As support she carefully wraps a nursing pillow around Kiara and shows her how to breast feed best. With the support of my arms, Kiara is able to breast feed both at once.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but it's so damn cute to see this. I keep on pressing kisses against Kiara's temples. This day has definitely been emotionally a hell of a ride, but looking down at the three most important people in my life I know it's been so worth it. This is one of the best moments in my life, now that I know they are all three ok.

Once Kiara is brought down to her ward, I take a selfie of us four together in her bed. First, I was going to upload it to my Insta wanting the world to know how happy and proud I am. That was until Kiara said she'd have me castrated if I post a photo of her looking like that. I tried to tell her how amazing she looks even if she's just gone through birth. Yes, she looks tired and her hair is a mess but she's still beautiful.

Instead of risking anything though, I simply send it to my dad and Gale and of course to our friends group.

Only half an hour later, Tyler comes barging through the door, his arms stuffed with balloons, boxes and flowers. After chucking everything on to the table, he dashes up to Kiara and pulls her in a huge hug. She winces in pain and I push him back with my one free hand.

"Hey back off a little, she's just had a surgery!" I yell and try to step in between protectively.

"What are you talking about, I thought she just gave birth."

"She had a damn c- section as they nearly died during birth. So I'd much appreciate if you don't torture my girl even more", even trying to surpress it, I can't quite keep back a growl.

"Fuck I had no idea. I'm sorry Beautiful, how are you? Are you ok? Congrats to your babies by the way."

Kiara's smile widens and I relax a little. "It's ok Dean, he couldn't know." Perhaps I should have warned them. "I'm a little exhausted but fine. Now it's four of us."

"I hope they get your looks. Although fuck, wait no. That means Dean and I would be fending the boys off constantly. Nah Phoebe better get Dean's ugly ass face." Of course he would say something like that.

Then he turns back to me and gives me a Bro hug. "No serious man, I'm happy for you, really happy. A year ago I was ready to castrate you, so you would never have kids with that bitch. Not that I thought you would ever have kids. And now look at you, a perfect girl at your side and two amazing babies. I'm proud of you Bro."

And I know for once Tyler is dead serious about what he's saying. "Now give me one of them, they need to meet their uncle. After all I'm going to be the best and coolest uncle in the world." And there he is again.

A little hesistant I hand Phoebe over into his arms and make sure to show him how to hold her decently. Phoebe and Leo are both fast asleep. Kiara is too exhausted to hold them right now, even if she wants to so badly. Instead Leo is lying in his bed under a special lamp to keep his tiny body warm and her hand reaches in to caress him lovingly. They don't need an incubator but they need warmth.

"They look amazing, so damn cute but also so tiny", Tyler says showing his soft side for a change while he's smiling down at Phoebe and then down to the bed Leo is lying in. We have a special bed we can lay the twins together in, so they can still feel each other and give each other warmth. Apparently, it helps premature twins a lot.

"Make yourself useful for once and put the flowers into water and attach the balloons to the bed. You can open the presents later."

"My girl has just given birth to our twins and you're comanding me around?"

"She gave birth, not you. Right?" If he wasn't just holding my daughter I'd be lunging at him right now, no one comands me around. For the sake of Kiara and my little ones I hold back for once and at least put the mixed flowers he bought her into a vase. He smirks knowing normally I would have never put up with this.

Luckily, I was able to get Kiara a private room again, so we don't need to worry where to put things up. Which is good seeing as only a couple of minutes later the room is filled with people, my dad and Gale and all our dearest friends have come. It was definitely a mistake not to write anything about the circumstances of the birth.

This time Tyler and I both build a kind of barrier so people won't lunge at Kiara to hug her and explain immediately. The flowers and gifts pile up on the table, Gale makes sure to put all the flowers into vases. After that she's swooning over our babies and a proud grandparents look takes over both faces, while Gale and my dad are each holding one of the twins in their arms.

Kiara puts on a brave smile but what she really needs now is some rest, it's been a hard day and she hasn't slept in nearly fourty hours. So after everyone was able to take a good look at our precious little babies and have a short chat, I ask them to leave and give Kiara some rest.

Once we're on our own I snuggle up to Kiara in the tight hospital bed. But we already have practice in that. "I'm so proud of you Honey. And thanks for making my life so much better, better than I could have ever imagined."

"I love you Dean, god I love all three of you so incredible much", tears escape her eyes again, while her hand reaches out for the baby bed pushed right next to her. "I never knew how happy I could be and how much love there could be in my life."

"You do the same to me every single day, my Love", I whisper against her hair before placing a couple of soft kisses on her sweet full lips.

Only minutes later, she falls asleep with her head burried in the crook of my neck. One of my hands reach out to my lovely babies once more. Caressing each of them gently, before giving into my own exhaustion.

A/N: The twins are there yay. By the way I hope to never ever read these baby hating comments by readers, like I sometimes read on other books myself. Remember at some point you were a baby yourself. If you still don't like the fact, simply skip but leave your hate comments.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter! Personally I wanted controlled Dean to flip a little at the beginning and question everything lol.

Only 1-2 chapters left. Sometime in future I intend to add a couple of bonus chapters, any wishes?

Have a lovely weekend Jackie xoxoxoxo