Kiara's POV:

No matter how hard I try to hold them back, I can't stop the tears from flowing. Of course it's also my hormones overwhelming me right now. There's no denying though, I would have probably shed a couple of tears even if I hadn't been pregnant.

So much is happening at once. I'm moving into my new home, an absolute dream home right from the first sight. Dean has organized a Christmas party for me, as he knows I've never experienced anything like it. He's organized the most beautiful decoration I've ever seen. This is like walking, ok let's say rolling, into one of my dream Christmas places a Christmas wonderland where even Santa would feel at home if he was real.

And our friends but also Gale and Brent are here, which means the most to me. People who have become family to me, more than my own parents have ever been. People whom I trust and love. The last part adding to my emotional state is the stress leaving me in this moment, stress caused through all the bad things which have happend in the last couple of months. Moving here feels like leaving part of it behind me.

I'm not blind to the fact, that a part of me will probably always have to deal with the trauma I've been through. Accepting my trauma is the first step of dealing with it. Will I ever be the same person again? No probably not. Is that a bad thing? No definitely not. I've grown due to everything I've dealt with. A part of me might have broken, other strong parts have been added on the other hand.

Giving up has never been an option for me, not at home, not in school, not at work and most certainly not in life. Things have always been the same, I'm a fighter and always will be no matter how much shit life throws at me.

And in this moment, when I take a look around I have everything I need and much more. Jeez I still can't believe I have my own home. And I'm not talking about a small rental apartment which I shared with Brad. No an unbelievable amazing dream house, which is going to be the home for my family. A home for my two babies, Dean and me.

My friends would literally do anything for me, as would I for them, which means far more than an expensive house. I'm expecting twins with an incredible man who has become the love of my life, even if I hate him at times. Alright I don't hate him, but he drives me insane.

Well be it, I love driving him insane too.

And then there is simply this, the perfect moment where everything I've ever wished for comes together. Honestly there would only be one thing which could make this moment even more perfect, sitting in the Charger instead of the wheelchair and feeling the engine roar while I can keep all the rest around it at the same time. Then again, a Charger in my new living room, surely wouldn't be the best idea.

Sean, Tyler and Dean surround me lovingly while my sobbing mixed with laughing fits won't stop. It takes me about half an hour, loads of cuddles, soothing words and some kisses from Dean to calm down.

"Hey Beautiful, if kisses help I can offer you some too. I'm a great kisser, something you shouldn't miss out on. Perhaps they even sooth you better than Dean's kisses", Tyler gives me a wink.

"Get your hands off my girl and step at least five feet away", Dean growls angry.

Guess one more thing Tyler and I have in common, we love to rile Dean up and it's so damn easy to do so. Although I know there's always a hint of truth with Tyler at the same time. No denying, he finds me hot and we have a great chemistry. Being Dean's best friend he would never act on it though. And me? Tyler is hot and charming, we get on great and if I had never met Dean, perhaps.

Fact is, I did meat Dean and the feelings I have for him are beyond anything I've ever experienced and beyond any imagination. Guess it's the once in a lifetime feeling, he's my love, he's become my best friend, he's become my life. The person who means the world to me and I'd do anything for. Nothing could ever match up to this.

Without knowing a puzzle piece was missing before, it's as if I'm only now complete that he's become a part of my life.

Looking at Tyler, I can't help but snicker, knowing he's playing his games with Dean again. Have they always done this with each other?

"Have you guys always bickered about girls and riled each other up?", I couldn't help but ask.

"You're Dean's second relationship. And Nadine? Are you seriously asking if I would have acted like that with her?", Tyler rolls his eyes and then puts on a disgusted face. "Nah, I would have rather puked and swallowed it back down than getting close to her. But it did rile Dean up when I kept on calling her bitch", he laughs. Yes, I love Tyler.

"But there must have been other girls. I mean maybe not relationships", why the hell am I even asking this?

"Who ever came first got the girl. And you know bro before hoe and so on. No big deal." Dean seems to feel a little uncomfortable with this subject, while Tyler blurts out everything freely.

"Can we please talk about something different? Perhaps concentrate on the Christmas party?", he definitely feels uncomfortable causing Tyler and me to laugh.

Now that my tears have dried out and my mind starts functioning again, I turn to Dean. "My clothes never got packed accidentally, did they?"

"No idea what you're talking about", he laughs. "But I'm glad those jeans and that white jumper disappeared. Because you look absolutely stunning." He leans in and whispers in my ear. "And damn sexy, especially in red and damn that red lace underneeth is killing me."

My legs clench together with his words. It's been too long we haven't had sex. The last time was in Russia which is months ago. Sure we do other things and I know he's turned on too, because that was my first worry that my belly or my body as such is putting him off. No, he's definitely turned on, he just holds back out of worry. In between I really doubted it so badly, I felt like crying or even did so in between. But his hard dick has proven me wrong.

I thought wearing red lace tonight might change his mind and finally get him to stop worrying.

Gale calls us all to the table for dinner. She may not be Dean's birth mother, yet she's more of a mother to him than his own has ever been. And now she's kinda adopted me too and gives me all her love. The food is possibly the best food I've ever eaten.

There's ham with crackling on top, a stuffed turkey, dumplings, roast potatoes, all kinds of differen't vegetables, yorkshire pudding and gravy. God, I love yorkshire pudding with gravy. Devouring my food I can't help but moan softly in between, which has Dean next to me tensing up, while Tyler on the other side clears his throat once or twice and then bursts out into laughter.

"Ok, I'll make sure to get you more decent food if this is the way you respond to it", he teases causing Dean to glare at him for what feels like the millionth time tonight. Sean on the other side of the table laughs.

"This usually works best with chocolate cake or Ben and Jerry's", Sean adds. Traitor!

Well Tyler already knows the Ben and Jerry's part, from when he came to comfort me, during the break up.

Sean knows me too well. Yes this is dead embarrassing, especially in front of Gale and Brent. "Hey I can't help it, I'm a sucker for good food. Kill me I'm a food moaner if it's good food, and this dinner is to die for. Besides I'm simply craving even more right now, my babies have made me a food junkie, so you see it's not my fault", I try to defend myself.

By now the whole table has caught on and a loud mix of laughter fills the room. Tyler leans over to Dean.

"Hot, I bet she's a screamer, huh?", he says so quiet for only Dean and me to hear.

"Shut the fuck up", Dean growls again while I blush harder than ever before in my life.

"Thought so", Tyler smirks and wriggles his eyebrows at me.

As soon as I bury my head into Dean's chest, even Dean laughs with a rumbling going right through his chest. "I love it when you cry out my name that even the neighbours three floors down could hear it", he whispers into my ear, causing me to slap his chest.

"Stop it", I complain, which only ends in another loud laugh erupting from his chest. "Idiot", I murmer.

"Well at least not a jerk this time", he states with amusement.

Jesus, I hope not everyone at the table caught on what we were talking about. During the rest of the dinner I try to avoid any subject or reaction of my body which could end in sexual topics again.

Everyone helps clear the dining table once were finished. And with finished I mean after we still stuffed some sticky toffee cake and the best chocolate mousse I've ever had down ourselves. Safe to say I've never felt like bursting as much as today. Even if I wasn't a ball due to my twins, you could roll me round the wheel right now and I'm not talking about my wheelchair either.

Gale and Brent come walking over to me, giving me a present. Inside the box I find a beautiful watch and gift card for a wellness weekend. I can't believe they spent this amount of money on me. A little overwhelmed and speechless I give both of them a big hug.

And just as I'm about to feel guilty about not having any present, Dean hands them one from both of us. It's more something funny than anything else, but I see the shimmer in Gale's and Brent's eyes as they pick up the two t-shirts and mugs with best grandpa and best grandma written on it.

Sean gives me a photo frame with a photo from us when we were youths.

"Oh my god, where did you find this?", I can't believe he still has this photo.

"Sweatheart, I still have loads of photos from us and as I know Brad destroyed most of yours, here's one of mine for you. I love you, you know that don't you?", Dean tenses next to me with those words even if he should know better by now.

"Love you too Sean. You're the best friend in the world, you've always been family to me", and with the hug, I give him a peck on the cheek too.

Nick and Chris have each bought me a minitature racing car, a Dodge Charger and a Nissan Skyline.

"Now you can feel like Dom and Brian from Fast", Chris and Nick say in unison making me chuckle.

"Thanks guys, but perhaps I'm Letty, badass who knows how to deal with guys and cars", I retort with a wink.

"Hot", Chris blurts out and his eyes dart straight to Dean once he realizes he said it loud. Yes Dean is glaring at him, perhaps it's toxic but damn do I find possessive Dean hot.

Tyler is the next one to walk up to me. His box is a little bigger than the others. Inside I find two cute teddy bears, obviously one for each baby. Underneath the bears I find another small box, inside I find a beautiful bracelett with charms on it. There's a car, one that says friends and an infinity sign.

"No matter what, I'll always be here for you as a best friend my Beautiful. Always, that's a promise", by the look on Dean's face he's not exactly pleased with the present, but he doesn't say a word. It's beautiful anyway and I love it.

"And before you feel bad because you don't have a gift for me, I've brought my own along. I just need you to sign it." I give him a puzzled look until he pulls out a photo from me he has obviously printed off, of course it's his so much-loved red bikini photo. The smirk on his face is hilarious and I burst out into laughter while Dean next to me explodes.

"The fuck you twat. You're not getting a signed bikini photo from my girl. What the hell do you think you're doing?"

"Hey you get the girl, all I want is a signed photo. After all this photo was kinda my first moment with Kiara", Tyler keeps on pushing with an amused look on his face. Dean's face has changed it's colour to a deep shade of red. If this was a cartoon you'd be able to see the steam coming out of his ears and nose, while his eyes bulge and get red marks in them.

I quickly sign the photo and hand it back to Tyler with a laugh. "He's going to kill you one day, you know that?"

"Will be so worth it", Tyler's attitude kills me sometimes. Perhaps I should feel bad or sorry for Dean, but I can't help and find this hilarious.

"What the fuck? Kar what the hell are you doing?"

"How many half naked pics of yourself have you signed for your fans? How many tits have you signed? I'm quite sure there are far more signed pics from you out there than from me", I give him a little teasing wink.

"Great now Tyler is never going to stop talking about this photo", he scoffs. "You're mine Kar and only mine."

"Don't worry I wouldn't have stopped talking about that photo either way", Tyler throws in.

"Not exactly helping Ty", I better stop this, before Dean really loses it. "I'm yours Dean, only yours. Ty gets a photo that's it, you have me in real." I pull him down towards me and whisper in his ear. "You're the only one who knows this body for real and can do with it what you want. And I'll gladly show you later on how much this body belongs to you."

Dean seems to calm down with my words. "I still don't like it. But I know this was just your way of teasing me, guess you need some decent spanking again, so you remember not to always tease me."

Me clenching my legs together puts a satisfied grin on Dean's face.

"Time for my present", Dean says and lifts my hair aside. I feel his hands put a necklace around my neck. "I want to be the only one to give you jewellery", he states loud enough for Tyler to hear. Tyler simply shrugs and doesn't seem fazed at all.

A long thin chain hangs from my neck and at it's end there's a beautiful heart pendant with loads of tiny diamonds in it. On the back of it, I find our initials engraved. Dean hands me a small box with matching earings inside.

"It's beautiful", stunned I wrap my hands around the pendant. Again I feel overwhelmed by all my emotions. All these thoughtful gifts. My first Christmas with gifts, well Christmas party as actual Christmas is first in a weeks time. While I say a loud thank you to everyone once more and next pull Dean in for a kiss, tears are rolling down my face again.

"Time to dance my Love", Dean stands up with a huge smile on his face, while he pushes me to the large empty space in the room near the fireplace.

"What? But I can't", I state confused.

"Say's who?", it's obvious Dean has planned this through. He nods in Tyler's direction who puts on some Christmas music.

Dean takes my hand and makes me twirl around in my wheelchair and then he starts moving me with our joint hands in the wheelchair. It's not the sexy hot dance I used to love in the past, but it's a dance with all kinds of different moves, where he is leading me expertly. When he dips me, I gasp shortly until I realize he's got full control of this and it feels amazing.

"Where did you learn this?", I ask with adoration for everything he's doing for me.

"Simple, YouTube", he laughs and I'm sure I look dumbfounded. Unbelievable that Dean has checked out how to dance in a wheelchair.

"I love you", the words leave my mouth while my heart is thumbing hard within my chest, for the man who has made all of this possible for me.

"And I love you Kar, no matter what", he leans down and kisses me. Earlier on I didn't think the evening could get any better, but it has.

We get interrupted by the doorbell ringing, which confuses me seeing as everyone is here. "Are you expecting anyone?", I ask Dean.

And suddenly I realize the whole mood around me has changed and I can't put my finger on it whether it's good or bad. They're simply acting strange. Well everyone besides Gale and Brent who simply give me a warm smile.

"Guess it's time for your special guest and the next Christmas present", is all that Dean replies before pushing me direction door.

"Hey Baby Racer, how are you?", a deep voice greets me as soon as the door opens.

Oh my god!

A/N: Remember who this is?

One thing I've always wanted to learn is to dance in the wheelchair, I can't get my hubby to do it with me though. So I decided to at least make this dream come true in the book lol. If anyone is interested how this looks like, I'll add a video below skip the first minute.

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I feel like I'm dragging things out at the moment as I'm not ready to give these two up yet.

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