Hey.
It's true what my mom says.
I lie in bed crying and whinning like a toddler when you're not home.
I know.
I know.
You want freedom to see your friends but I rarely see you anymore.
Its just that in the back of my mind it worries me that i did something wrong.
Did I take jokes too far?
Am I that annoying?
I know you love me but with Mitchie in college.
You're all I have left.
Sure I have my parents but dad works all day and mom yells.
I remember growing up you would tell me to stop growing up.
I'll be happy young.
I understand that now.
I wish I could be three again.
Unfazed by the cruel world.
You would give me piggy back rides like a couple minutes ago.
You gave me a piggy back ride and I squealed and giggled like a toddler. Then, I made you proud by showing you that I got an A+ on my Algebra test.
After that, you left again.
But, I saw you texting your friends. You were sad.
I almost cried in front in you.
I thought you were planning on suicide.
Luckily, you weren't.
But at those second I realized how much you mean to me.
If I lost you, I would probably kill myself.
But hey if being with your friends makes you happy then do it. 
I don't say this enough but I love you bro.
You probably will never read this but it if feels as if I'm talking to you.
And that's all that matters.